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Documents Served by McDumpster for mikey

2009-08-11T06:09:00.000-07:00

ON August 8, 2009 @ approximately 1900 hrs i was approached by a single rider on a motorcycle that accelarated westward;

upon reaching me a packet of pages was thrown at me. thus striking me then falling to the ground; to which i then turned my back on the individual and retrieved the pages.

I then walked on a southeasterly passage to home. 414 Drown Ave. I crossed the Valero Gas Mart parking and filling areas. the idividual then road around in a pre-determined way to gather a passenger. i was only able to likely move one way. once his passenger a - mss sara golian- was onboard he road the cycle in circes around me calling threats.

the service of the documents can be served by Sheriffs and others are posted to teh sites. they see the request to utilize the sheriff's in this fashion. Room 101 ofthe Ocunty building. near the left side of the eleavators.

essentially. i have been terrified by these peoplefor some time. i have made numerous police and US Secret Service reports about them

He speciifcally threatened my life and the life of POTUS. directly placing in the same context the words "i, kill, nigger" and that was in reference to the statements that ms.golian is in a precarious position.

in an effort to be diplomatic and understanding of these extraordinary circumstanes i have been given a sort of control or responsibility over these two. sara and ksenia golian-jaffe

both took my name in 2007 and 2008 and currently they still hold the distinction as we did use the USPostal Service. So the letters are real. At an earliertime thing were really happy with us.

I haven't lost taht capacity to remember fondly and from distance.

i have had to use The Hut Bar upon a txt message from herself to me to do so. since that time i have not been a part of the bar nor its culture. it is changing. like other places that have been held terroriszed by an

UN NAMED WHITE SUPREMACIST GANG IN THE Oak View area. Get it. I just pushed you back. and now the courts are on board.

so, your honors - its what i call flipping the script. and that means i ddin't like the story at all.

My name is scott mitchell jaffe

i did live with ksenia golian. have paid for items of furniture and accesories for her.

i have fixed breakfasts and dinners forher.

we have watched television together.

we painted on a wall in my home once.

it is evidence and has been shown to Sheriff's deputies.

The blog site and all related information is true.

every stinking last word. likely.

anything not true i will specifically address item by item in any court in any land. starting right here. califronia usa

so.

without futher ado.

lets back check - then subpoena a soverign nation?

then only one employee TERMINTATED is sara golian of Tenacious Technical Services, LLC?

yup.

okay and there is a connect to OHIO on their website and that is now posted on mine at simplethoughts

and lastly, your Honors.

I haven't any thing negative to say about a general pool of people. I simply feel deeply and have medical reasons for writing this way.

I have a very small but extraordinary client base: i am not at liberty to say. However, if you contact Senator Fienstein

the Chair of the Intelligence Committee? yes, that one. She may be able to shed some light on ms golians delusions and who they have manifested. In my opinion, sirs and m'ams: sara would indeed like to know that i am watching her child. She'll feel ksenia is safe while she has to evidently go byebye for a while.

UNLESS, of course, she prefers Drown House and Malibu to jail and Prison?

Let's give them a little time to deliberate? YEs, thank you your Honors.

Sara, its dialogue, some conjecture and just fault testing my life that got so freaking weird.

Now i can fully see why and its not just you. Its my high school. I just got mature sara. shall you apologize for being an 'idiot' in the wrods of BES IT.

Wo, should Stacey Jones or The Hut? Should any or you apologize for being taken over by a gang controlled from the center of the web.

Oh yeah, with Carolynne Dana gave me a message about aweb.

Are you suggesting I brought all you alls here? Well, then it goes to show that Dr LisaGuerin DID NOT THEN in fact state a single thing about anything. It does shed a little bit more light on quantum mechanics and also the notion of naNo Technologies

that's all.

thanks for reading. hope the threads begin to firm up some soon. hope sara makes a SAIJNER=saner choice today.

bloom now sara. be a dark star ...

This is the 6th page of the support docs that were NOT addressed by the court. http://www.box.net/shared/1f1m0sf1ch

This is the 7th page of the support docs that were NOT addressed by the court. http://www.box.net/shared/k587xfyyrc

YOur honors. I will make a better matrix in time.

again thanks. we are all busy and getting busier. except sara. she needs to stay locked down and the Sheriff's quite well understand my intent and putpose in makingthat un-equivocal statement.

Should ksenia wish to live with me. she is welcome. i have stable residence, plans to become involved in a great relationship with awesome people.

My business will afford this and I believe will increase her ability to earn an education.

Therefore I created as part of The OurLinks Foundation, along with the Margaret & Rusty Aldrich Scholarship Fund; now too the Ksenia Golian-Jaffe

Scholarship Fund.

With greatest distinction i award then to Ksenia a gift. The gift of choice. Happy Birthday Dear. sorry a little bit on the later side.

Don't fret. Momma does not wwish to go to jail Confused. yes. we all are.

Really. I am not a trained agent. other than by my own curiosity in life and the skills to which i apply my strengths to offset my weaknesses.

and i never, ever let anyone threaten me.

so. i write to protect myself in the midst of a CIVIL RIGHTS case in our courts. It seems to be taking on a life of its own.

and the next part of my day is here.

sara. pray honey. pray very carefully and with major HOPE, FAITH and LOVE. Pray with Peace that no matter what may come you acted out of LOVE for something.

even something as terrible as a satan or a shiva gone mad.

but, please. tell me that you didn't do it for sucidal ideation and a desire to take everyone out with you.

sara. with this i can compel a court to order a blood test on you. i just want to be clear.

2009-07-03T10:13:00.001-07:00

IQ test

2009-06-16T07:28:00.000-07:00

Yesteday, while under pot hashish and other meds i scored 84 then 127 on two IQ tests online. Just a few minutes to see. And what was the score before those two? 137 in a much more intensive testing session lasting about 30 minutes with 100+ questions.

Either way i was pleased to note that i am not disabled for reasons of Intelligence.

Why then? Indeed ... you read more about that later. First, I am really at wits end. Now, for sitting on a public bench - AFTER 6 pm closing time at the coffeeshop giving me such tension over the past week cops showed at my house with a complaint that i sat in front of the shop. That too is not accurate. I walked in and said hello quick and walked out. I was not told to not trespass, i was told to leave one day and this has led to not receiving service, now the rest. No one was visible at the counters and a few patrons acknowleged me. Went back to their things. So its not the patrons.

Wow, that little entrance was based on what had been written in the sites earlier - so that's won't become an issue. SO, they are liars to boot? Just what i'm trying to puzzle out here.

Now they will attempt to get a Temp Restraining Order (TRO nor RTO) and i can't see how? Bench, public street, First Amendment to Protest/Demonstrate/Assemble Peacefully; sit in peace on a bench - any of this seem like what we in the US are able to do? I mean if something had occured rising to the levels indicated - well that would make sense. Their actions - the Jones's are going to be a little embarrassing for one of the parties - not me. How much worse can I look to the global population? not to mention Ojai.

Know what - it would be swell if the PEOPLE holding some INTELLIGENCE would intervene a little cause now Stacey is flippin' and her man is not thrilled, its got to be inside the household now - like a nasty cocaine habit. oops - i dunno know nuthin'.

Anywho, MR President. Sir. Good morning. The envoy to Haiti cool choice. Ice blue President. Thanks Mr Clinton - you left US in good shape, on paper anyway - and in morale (VERY IMPORTANT). It made and still makes quite a difference to me. JohnFrank seemed always impressed by your style and politics. Guess it sorta seems I am a Dem? I do seem to have some appeal sir - perhaps for this little favor i will present a seminar free in service of my country. We both realize my fees will become massive as time moves along.

When I vote - i tend towards my conscious, ideals, and morals - how does the candidate line up. Will he or she make the best practice choices based on my needs? so on. I would have voted Mr Obama. Best choice with demonstrated Best Practices. That is what will come out in court. Best Practices. I'll get a chance to see the books too - i'll make a case on the merits that Sitting around I watched all sorts of weirdness? You know. Court can get nasty. I don't think they quiet realize, sir.

Now - my childrens' mother has no needs that i am able to provide for them, at this time. That does not change how i feel for them. And if it turns out that i imagined the idea of children with her so strongly that i am delusional - its a sweet delusion. I'll figure it out eventually. Having the IDEA of them so strongly in mind is causing me to consider I have much to lose - in terms of freedom. Obviously Jail sucks and i haven't any interest in returning. So i must demonstrate to the IDEA of the children in the FUTURE seeing this site - the images captured of the protest and so on. I must realize that when i write foul language it is illustrative.

We are foul to each other. Coffee shop owners not taking time to understand the needs of the clientele. Thousands of people demonstrating the peacefulness of VOTING turning in to rabid fucking animals. RIOTING! North Korea saying screw you - weapons grade plutonium now. And those holding sway with the others not opening the back channels wide to change - sham on you too. So it appears Cassidy may have been the one at the coffee shop to uncover Stacey and will be her undoing.

Cass - take herat. Learn and realize that you hold great power not just over men - but over all those in life. You are Aphrodite and that will casue you to need to learn specific skills - like Ksenia - you could benefit from watching the poise and grace of Miss Lorna instead of competing.

Men and women, girls and boys of this planet - the levels of tolerance seem to be dropping. The level of interst it what's going on around US seems to be lost in iPhones, iPods, Media Player, xBox, and everything else. What really matters? The bling bling - or the human spirit?

I'm grateful that Carolynne and others have not authorized money and vehicles and clothing and cash and all the rest that goes wit hteh 11 billion USD lifestlye.

Oh, I am there. When i get access - which is what i really enjoy - could be 100 years after im long gone and to my favorite charity. The money is a tool. With more of it i could do more for many. Without it - i seem to appear to be a jcat.

Mentaly disturbed to the point of ederanged. That is not me. I have PTSD and a few mood disorders to work on with my personality. Welll hello - big surprise!

In the end - Stacey I have nothing to lose and everything to gain by your amking this first court move. You involved the cops which are more intersted in seeing how I interact if Lorna was nearby than anything else. I'd be fine. Guys, really, truly - i want an office and a receptionoist to go get the coffee for me - so, i'm moving towards town. Opening my own shop. You Know - _ _ _. (Easy hangman).

Regardless, this site is monitored and some very real tension is affecting people out here sir because of BLOWBACK from the infiltration. Please, before they choose to use State recources to waste time and energy when a simple call from even your newest staffer will make everything smoother for them. All i want is the BEST, FRESHEST coffee in town in walking distance served by very pretty people and to be around the energy - to watch Main Street USA while i think and write. They want a percentage of the story royalties for the trouble - your call will make the story lockdown more quickly than CNN. Seriously. When it does break -now or after a trial - what will the White House have to say about this power squeeze today. How can it be claimed that one didn't know?

For nearly 13 years I have frequented that shop. All of the sudden ... this weirdness. Not cool Stacey. Stop calling cops on me when the shop is closed. If the girls end up staying later to clean - they may wish to consider life is a bigger thing that what is happening on Main Street. Scrub good you never now when the health inspector gets called for a dog inside.

With a high IQ people are often intimidated by the holder. Though, the intelligent person may not be capable of DUMBING down so much to be stoopid. So, it becomes discrimination based on disability and while the right to refuse service exists - i believe that the rest is going to fall short of the litmus test for a TRO. Guess we'll see. The last day of school Mr President - a pardon to a fourth grader - but not a call to signal appreciation for what appears to be success toay in the Peace Process.

In many ways its not like the mentality of a rioting mass in Iran. Ever seen a riot up close? It's begun by an agitator (Cassidy) and often grows out of porportion real fast. (Stacey). In Iran - the riot was likely a fight between two stoopid people acting without thinking. Then, like any bar room brawl - of the girls at the coffee shop mostly can't go to bars yet.

Life experience goes a long way. Too bad for so many that the world is really going through a phase with us on top going mad.

Really. Please. It is no different than a letter for a fourth grader. Confirm the connectivity is nothing else. Lend some credibility - or don't. If you think this matters sir - well, you'll do something. If not. You won't.

Had to post over on simplethoughts

2009-06-08T20:46:00.000-07:00

be back here tomorrow.

This is sorta the ROAD MAP to getting rid of PAROLE

2009-06-07T15:36:00.000-07:00

When Kitty and Mike attempted to talk things through about me - provable no. CRCUMSTANTIAL as heck. yes. That's what i need. YOur bullshit caused sara to miscarry and i will hunt your slimy souls into the darkest corners of the cells you are going to inhabit with edgar.

track that back. my mean page. i like the idea very much.

At the VONs`

2009-06-04T22:16:00.000-07:00

As i was walking away a message was left face down on the windshield. i noted a vehicle accelerating away - newish; blue with no plate seen.

however, lets presume all this is true. and it is. do you not think tha the entire ojai valley is under satelitte surveillance fom time to time? do you not imagine that if i wanted my vehicles new, old, otherwise to have imaging equipment i would have you miserable faces on camera?

are you guys and gals thinking at all? are you able or is the meth killed you straight up?

let's be clear. i wish you to cease and desist. if i feel threatened at all i will start with the clearest and baldest looking krusty clown small dog owning family and work from there outward.

if this is you, then stop. if it's not and you want a part - not a bit role, then get your shit into gear and reach sara and work it out.

now, for the analysis. if you use thiscross then it means you claim white supremacist. correct?

okay, do you want me to turn this into the sheriffs for analysis? it's bagged.

ready to go out bad ass.

any time you want, just remember - you're not on candid camera. you are on MY cameras.

have a nice day.

punk.

mike

2009-06-04T14:25:00.000-07:00

you can't seppuku?

okay.

then go with turning state's evidence.

oh, already did that?

my bad bitch.

hey, lemme ask you this: it wouldn't never protect you now would it?

so, how many others are shaking too?

mike, just ask for a cell, all by yourself.

read your poem.

think of me. mike, think of me.

oh, folks at home - it is 6-04-2009 , not the MARK you seem to be seeking. Talk with c/o mark - he saw the nerve go apeshit.

tank you , dir. fat lip mike? rich? good. wish i couldn't be any closer to you than i have to be. a thought is quite enough for me.

godd bye mike.

good bye rich.

punks. i am a jackass, i am not perfect. i am able soon to be perfect for you because mike is deliberating in earnest.

he can't bear thinking i will do this for the rest of his days.

now, mike. these are your thoughts. just reset. my opinion, does not make it right.

hasta la vista, baby. you're welcome.

can i have my car now please. it is so cool and i love driving so much. i bet i could pass flight school? can i test? please? thanks., oh thanks so much. my condolences mr JT. and josh, i did not see you pic this AM bro! what up.

sis, thanks.

ciao. luce, keep it dearly held and happily worked with - its a powerful piece - be awaare.

from the world famous Palermo in Ventura, Calif - the most incredible beach side community i had ever lived in managed by Moore Management. Thanks Denise. Zoe.

The place is awesome and safe. Like my women, girls, bros, pals, and lovers. Abstain i say - at least greatly allude to all year long (doesn't that count, I*&^%$#).

Great day world - feel cool. Shalom allechem - allechem shalom.

2009-06-02T08:27:00.000-07:00

I do some re-writing.

Usually the last entry, or if I really have a correction i'll make comments.

Bear in mind, that it i not everyday that this happens. Life is not made of many coincidences, or any at all.

Anyway ... I did add some a re-write. FYI. More later.

ciao

Mike and jail

2009-06-01T14:27:00.000-07:00

Well, it is getting HOT inside about now. you have bitten off at least your thumb nails. you are thinking about nothing but how you can't stand me. you have even gone beyond blaming the child or the girl. you are mine forever mike. how's it feel bitch?

if you are not in a cell yet, you will soon be. the home you have had to take when i pushed you into that space is like a cell. that was easy.

mike. you will not survive jail unless you learn yoga and mediation. of course your poem - it's legal paper.

you will not go main line, so your life is very, very lonely and full of shit.

life is shitty.

mike, get it yet?

Ventura County Law Library

2009-06-01T09:00:00.000-07:00

This is where i am now. I've got case law to read and notes to tidy up - paper to trash.

The usual office work.

Emulate - oh I am doing that, trust and believe that boyos.

Okay, here's the deal.

I imagine Mike and Rich in custody. I imagine that a large network of bad dudes and gals have been - what - disrupted?

I imagine that LA feels a WHOLE LOT COOLER.

I imagine myself in the wild blue yonder. Mach 2 - absolutely.

These are all swell. However, the one imagination that brings me some incredible vibes is that I am loved. Finally, for just me. It has been a long time since I have felt accepted.

I am like a crumbly cookie - yummy and warm and wholesome.

Mike - you are not. You could have been, you chose unwisely.

I believe in God. I propose that where you are going you get into the word. It's the only book you will have for a while.

If i text now, I can leave my vehicle in handicapped parking - i can go into the main jail, surrender for annoying phone calls, get booked, and be in the next cell pal before lunch.

However, i don't need to do that and I don't want to. I am instead reseraching, updating my family and friends, sending out good vibes to those i love - and love fully.

Oh, the freeway drive - that was me showing trainers around me that i'm not only a good defensive driver, but also incredible aggressive if necessary.

Maybe i should have gone Navy after all - nah. Saving Ksenia was so much more enjoyable - Mach 2 hasn't got a thing on the smile of a child safe and protected.

Have a great day world. Miracles can and do happen. Are you a person in herself or himself able to accept that as truth?

I am ...

Scott Mitchell Jaffe. New sections evolving daily. Stay tuned...

you tall dude with the dark hair

2009-05-29T17:20:00.000-07:00

you asked meif "i got a bag with that" atthe Von's lot at night.

You are his 2nd.

you pushed a nail into my tire and it is in the sidewall.

now i will find you and your life...okay? fair?

tell you what. i am older now - more mature. instead of enleashing hell upon your tiny mind - i will instead project you into a terrible nightmare existence.

good tradeoff - idiot.

leave me be. if any single thing happens to any of me - my freinds, my family - any of their friends, families - heck. if one more global issue occurs i will project onto you my frustrations.

this is for a tire.

imagine what i will do for something else?

mike - if you aren't locked down yet - which i know you are - then you will soon be.

national treasures get spooked by retaliatory behaviours rather quickly. and this one is far, far from out to pasture.

still active?

my choice.

yes, i am annoyed - "as"s lee g (blessed be his memory) might have been thinking about what you brought into his camp.

ancient tension - that's what i want to think about - helping to be part of a solution - a family where i feel safe to just be me.

that's all folks.

you'll have to get by the rest of this night without me. i'm off shift in 35 minutes -roughly.

just in case the library is a stretch - maybe they'll print for you.

2009-05-29T13:55:00.000-07:00

lewis carroll
alice's adventures in wonderland & through the lookin glass.

in Through the looking glass you will find the Jabberwocky.

'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe;
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

"Beware the Jabberwock, my son!
The jaws that bite, the claws that catch!
BEware the JubJub bird, and shun
The frumious Bandersnatch!"

HE took his vorpal sword in hand:
Long time the manxome foe he sought -
So rested he by the TUMtUM TREE.
And swtood awhile in thought.

And as in uffish thought he stood,
The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame,
Came wiffling through the tulgey wood,
And burbled as it came!

One, two! One, two!And through and through
The vorpal blade wnet snicker-snack!
He left it dead, and with its head
He went galumphing back.

"And hast thou slain theJabberwock?
Come to my arms, my beamish boy!
Oh frabjous day! callooh! callay!
He chortled in his joy.

'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe;
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

The Jabberwock! by Lewis Carroll

EXERCISE

2009-05-29T07:28:00.000-07:00

A moment to switch roles reader.

Keeping in mind that we face a National Treasure in this writer - one that has helped to swing back a real pendulum. Maybe larger in scope and sequence than any thing ever seen before - a real A grade effort.

Many thanks.

In this spirit:

How do you see the choices made by you - before you make them?

In a 3 page essay, utilizing the literary devices of alliteration, and otomautopeoia, explain the story of Hades. Did the ancients have any specific reason in your mind for creating the stories to guide them?

wow

2009-05-28T21:12:00.001-07:00

beginning again. ivan is great. way cool. wow.
whatever.
i love you hope faith love.
blythe is my amazing friend.

sent from the best in the world.

Wanting to express how happy i am with "that's not

mine!!"

i want what Teri has please. thank you. way vooll

in my porsche - 959 with no modifications. why?

becasue of detante of course.

love you sara, and aLL my f-girls time to dance!

aptrty hrty and rock n roll

dnk thatr 5th and
smole
the cowkl

loove ohs!Q

make oit worlkdworld

ob

2009-05-28T19:50:00.000-07:00

when two people make a pledge to each other - come to get each other - begin to share in each others experiences to a certain degree; the inevitable can occur.

to be the strongest woman i know causes one to take a moment and pause significantly - did he hear me? is he shouting at me so loudly that it wakes the world up becasue he hears me?

what was i told to watch for? just this sort of thing. when he and i met the inevitable occurred - sara and i remembered each other from elsewhere.

i place not necessarily of here. it is a strange sort of thinking and so bear with me a moment.

such things exist called: tarot, numerualogy, kaballah, etc.

each directs the being towards a place of enlightenment. that's always been a cool thing for me to have. though to attain knowledge at times requires some unorthodox procedures.

some people get trained early on - like - when we get you out we'll need to talk with you. and well, look, there is this thing going on. you'll be like nancy drew. so, what do you say? wanna go?

oh hell yeha - after what was talked about up north? yes sir.

sign me ah-hem, up.

sound about right?

okay - so you have the capacity to want to be with him - that is cool and understood. though you have not and at this time i'm not interested in discussion unless you need? i think it is screwed to the max that this sounds even remotely plausible. has me even thinking.

mike. caren. it is not yours.

caren ...

not daves.

sara. good girl. well done all accounts. i whisper you too.

and that, they say is nearly a rap.

you can't ignore the compelling international remifications. the green stuff, slimy green golf balls.

yeah, i hear you.

basketball for now, green stuff - later.

that's what friends are for ...

2009-05-28T19:16:00.000-07:00

shitty, life is really shitty at times.

other times it is so amazing words fail.

grrd and i spoke openly and candiddly. reality is what it appears to be - missing.

to whom do we owe the honor? please, please, let me know that - hold on the phone - okay you aren't involved.

good.

however, the level of connectivity makes it legally impossible to not go down. mike.

you with us. you and who ...

oh brother - did you ever screw the pooch on this one.

i need some help - i need a good screw - i know you'll do. did it occur twice in sb?

holy moley batman - what are you saying ?

yes, sports fans, it appears the nasty nasty may have happened more than once - lots of calls are going to someone about mikes actions.

busy beaver.

well, that's simply speculation at this time - but a many moving the merch has got to have his girls on the road. just for the day ... right around when?

what happened then to ...

want to tag along for the day? fill me in on the events of life. isn't that grand - a new conspiracy? someone want to hurt me? who?

caren and mike?

well sports fans - this is going to become quite an interesting event. when we spend this kind of time together plotting - well the bitch cut me loose until she needed me" she still loves him ... thinks that you will be going after ksenia before he can? oufah loofah - mike. how's this for the truth?

then add the hmm drugs, then of course the set up, and even complex the question ...

how much of a rebel and a very unsmart person were you? who? indeed.

i hate to be right, i despise being wrong. please. let me be wrong, you 2 did not - you did? you plotted and schemed and then what happened ...

tell the truth mike.

dave.

caren.

tana.

and who is the last ...

kitty?

Exercise

2009-05-28T05:53:00.000-07:00

Rockt TOP you'll always be /
Home sweet Home to me/
Good ole Rocky Top/
Rocky Top, Tennessee
Rocky Top, Tennessee.

I haven't a good idea of why i woke with thisdity on my mind.

Got my mind on my money. and my money on my mind.

Another cool-ass lyric.

We'll sports fans - The Lakers dominated again - here we go, another ring?

I am hurt, sorer, angry, and now holding a most unusually filed can of beer in my home.

I haven't a thing to hide. yes, sir. go at it. spring-board and hope, have faith, and mostly love that cards were delivered and conversations can develop between addicts that lead to sound business plans and NOT stupidity.

I take chances on our people too Mr President. I generate this message to you for many reasons: first - our children. Priority One.

Now, all my faults, and foibles, and bs yelling aside - if you are offered something and have a choice to turn down things - we'll that's one thing. BUT IF I ask you to stay away and you choose to Not - well - what do we do?

This is the tension in HOTSPOTS around the globe. It is the root rot and it stinks. Life is shitty.

I carry around a messenger bag. it is a sample product and has a small hole cut into the black-colored back piece - underside.

It is really easy to maneuver and wo much enjoyment comes each and every time i put it on.

I despise being wrong sir, i hate - yes - i hate being right.

A whispered 'no, stop' is not the same as abstaining. ESPECIALLY when you don not understand the history.

So, Sara and Caren. What happened. Were you dosed, then abused -raped. Or did you volunteer to find out whre things are going and flowing to? Or, did it not really happen this way and Intelligence being what it is one wishes to ascertain the best intel.

I carry a card mad by a man who bunked with a pal who lost life to California too.

Mark, not to worry - I remember explaining that a few things had to happen first.

Tahachipi, SLO, OC: On line and ready.

Santa Paula is cool now, but cocked and definitely loaded.

Ojai - well sir, it appears that we will deliver some intel as we gather it - or a client relationship may develop.

Betrayal. Why?

Gt turned out? No - there is more "crackle" and people are now wanting to know what is happening in my head? NOt my mind, but the forces that physically make me work.

You can't take that away - none of you.

So, then, I am developing a skill that is neophyte.

My FREINDS and family and neighbors and dinner companions no se? - we are waiting to see something.

Sara, it is 6:06 am 0600 hours.

you are clear, healthy, and talking with a smart Bostonian.

Dave, jackass.

Relax. World I may have been hasty and emotional - which is why i spent time in dinner talking extra time with my FRIENDS.

You will watch my back and I will watch yours. I especially enjoy reading the REPORTS about literacy. Readingand writing can save lives - partly. Socializing, well, that is a whole 'nudder' thing.

Na way

2009-05-27T21:04:00.001-07:00

"Be cool." PLz

Okay. A quote from Proverbs - then the newsdesks.

2009-05-27T10:20:00.001-07:00

Do not devise evil against your fellow, one who dwells securely with you. Do not quarrel with any man without cause, if he has done you no evil. Do not envy a man of violence and do not choose any of his ways. For one who deviates is an abomination to HaShem (or God as you define it); and His counsel is with the upright. HaShem's blight is upon the house of the wicked, but He blesses the abode of the righteous.

Proverbs 29-33

Case law on the way. Yes, there is quite a bit to bring to the Bench. I will NOT waste OUR time or resources. Count on me.

David Messier 805-450-3903 GPS enabled

2009-05-27T06:54:00.000-07:00

Drives a Grey/Dark Charcoal Lexus LS 400 late model? The sporty one.

If he switched pink slips he is driving his girl CAREN MOYERs Beige Toyota Camery.

Ddavid has sandy brown hair cut stylishly. He favors HEMP clothing and HAS TO SMOKE pot. Recovering Crystal Freak.

If this is you and you aren't happy - tough shit.

it appears a family way is going on

2009-05-26T21:31:00.000-07:00

yup. Dave Messier has evidently been one of a couple men likely responsible for a pregnancy. Again, a drugged rape.

Dave. Ready Get Set Go. Boston. You had better be out of the state soon pal. Once this hits the waves you are fucked too.

See assholes drugs and sex do not mix. Dumb fucks.

sara, have a great time in Boston, I hear the schools are great.

Maybe Dave can survive. I doubt it.

Did I lie? You did not Front Load.

Sometimes it works when drugs are involved - or love. That hasn't happened more than once. Me. Some one else? DDY

Good bye Sara. You are going to feel it get hot - the writing is going to be honest and truthful. You have been a party to a horrible charade. I told you to not listen to a biter.

Your husband now. Good luck. Now Now, I don't x-pect any invitation.

Sue me for liable if this is bullshit, and do bring the medical records to court. PTSD was aggrevated either way. Evidence. Thank you, i love evidence.

Dave, she wants "I deserve to be loved and appreciated." I hear = ever anything to the contrary and you are going to be upset.

You left me for bullshit and now you have a guy who is bullshit.

Obsessed

2009-05-26T13:38:00.000-07:00

I am now focused upon every detail of your miserable existence(s). I will lock down all testimony in discovery. I am sensing very clearly her pain - this is a deep feeling of betrayal. Mike, the planet has no place for you to crawl under.

You will show, or you will meet my friends in prison. I cannot state a thing about how you and Thompson and Embrey could cell up together. Protective Custody. Isolation.

Oh, I got gas at Valero today. Sorry about Tana leaving you. seppuku? slow death because you have now no second. Say my name bitch. 1499 - okay dave, okay. because you two did this together to me - i give you silence until it is time to destroy your life histories. always and forever - asshole. Mike, tana - you are really such sad examples of what you pretend to preach. the four of you belong together.

Mike, you fucked up bad. if she texts me, writes me, calls me in any way upset, distraught, harmed, afraid - you will feel such a thunder of legal paper descend upon your head that your bathroom will look like a cell.

That is where you must now go - to the shitter. Man, i am so hot and in 45 gotta tutor. Man, stay in your freaking hole. I am going to watch from the street from time to time because it helps me to focus.

So, when at 4 am you feel a feeling between your slimy thoughts - that is me - inserting myself into the wicked space that you refer to as a mind. All of you.

Then, i am focusing deliberatly upon the deconstruction of you. If you find a way to read this information between your immature and absolutely pointless fits - I FEEL YOU SLIME BALL. GREEN SLIMY GOLF SIZED BALLS you have.

Mommy did this to you? Pathetic- you got any sisters?

All of it. Catharsis. And if this is not what you wanted - then ABSTAIN.

I see you are trying to clean up your alter ego truck. my final words: see you in court. People do become monsters in this world if we as people choose TO ENGAGE with non organic substances.

I am on a mission of eradication, and Mike is my guide.

Thank you for giving me a job. A little one for only a day or two. I have such a rage - if you have the balls Mike - the paperwork has the ways to reach me. Talk this time PUNK. I feel you when you prank. i feel you when you wake and when you seeth and when you want to cry bitch. i got you in such a vicegrip you little chomo.

hello sara - thanks for the ? what? lies? I see the TRUTHin between the lines.

Now, it's time for the newsrelease.

Thanks CW. I feel ya mama. MOMA DANCE

All new decks of playing cards have instructions

2009-05-26T06:09:00.000-07:00

And when the old deck is played - it seems that that cards never lose the ability to fall the same way - over and over again; pay attention.

If, and it likely is not a big if - I get upset enough ... and i am truly there David Messier :: Mike McCullar (same number of letters).

You wish to KNOW the truth about me Sara Golian. Ivan ...

i am not amused. i will not suffer further disgraces nor ignoble truths.

i have not cheated in this 'game' with any of you. Do you really wish to find out what a ROYAL STRAIGHT FLUSH looks like in my world? Leave the FUCK alone Mike.

I feel like you've broken me, like a little horse? Loosen the grip on the shaft of the broom hon. I am not playing with you, and you had really begin to not worry about whom i flirt with and why. you wish to screw each and every man on the planet - i cannot become responsible for your actions. I can only again offer adoption to Ksenia. Marriage to you

i sense, thank goodness, because of the bigger picture, that you wanted to see if i would throw things into the street last night. in my delirium to think that the one person whom i had made a good solid business contact with regarding the MMJ would back stab me this way - i did not lose it too badly. I also did not call again.

It hurt(s) so badly to be caught unawares: like that way Monica must have made SecState feel. I haven't been with anyone else since proclaiming love for you. Never. Since re-connecting about how glad i was/am to have had the honour of a pregnancy with you. And ours didn't last ... Ksenia did and she is great and lovely and smart and under my protection Mike.

Want to get messy Mike? Ask Dave if he believed me and saw the look in my eyes. Do you think anyone in their semi-conscious, right mind would make another stinking wave when KNOWING this Tsunami is coming.

I want the rights mike. Believe it

Opening the mail and seeing the Montana connection. I get it. Ouch. Really ouch. I have been jerking it and feeling absolutely shitty alternatively all freaking night long.

i did not succumb to my desires: i listened and broke bread my friend. I want to believe the same of you. Will i ever Know for certain? What tells you i already don't?

You want to be Caren Moyers. Fine.

Working together was a great option - and even in my false incarcerations - not even being home to give us a chance - an honest one.

So, you gave me honesty. But you didn't front load me? I can't believe that you would make the same mistake - it must be pretty big. ..

I am glad i didn't lose my temper. It was over - but if that really happened - then everything said before the car was a lie too. No biggie - i get lied to every day.

I am very angry, very focused, and very able to get to court this morning on time.

I am very saddened, very sorry for the pain this will cause some innocents. Great public schools. Only best friends on this ticket.

You are soon served - leave them alone and don't ever make her have to go that far with me again Mike. 135 Mountain View, Oak View CA, 93022 - maybe you'll get some fan MAIL in addition to what the Sheriff's are bringing.

I will take every slight, every nuance of discontent and legitimatize it by asking you so many question that PTSD has a name referred to as the betrayal of friend syndrome - not me - I will not betray a friend and that is longterm consistent.

SO.

Second JOKER

2009-05-25T19:16:00.000-07:00

Ksenia:

I encourage you to think next about self defense. I'd spar you in Karate or Judo.

If you win, you can have a Porsche.

Promise.

First JOKER

2009-05-25T18:53:00.000-07:00

Mike.

You alone tonight? I am not. THough, I am thinking about you too.

Mike. You and i are through the looking glass at each other. Do you understand the reference?

No, of course not.

GO TO THE LIBRARY in Ventura and get the book:

ALICE IN WONDERLAND.

You will soon be asked to write a 250 essay on the nature of the JabberWokey.
If you fail to do this, I will crucify you in court.

Your official invite is underway.

I will ask you in the Subpeona to bring this document described as the "250 word essay."

Once this accomplished you will earn a lengthier assignment.

If you do not engage in this activity then you will simply be crucified on the witness stand; if you do not show, i will ask immediately that the enforcement agencies take to finding you.

Oh, take care this week - i will likely be around making sure that you stay in the house area.

You'll see me - if you are at all diligent.

I'm sorta in your face - ya no?

Good BBQ asshole.

52

2009-05-01T19:12:00.001-07:00

this is the 52nd post. i am playing with a 'full deck'.

it's got to stop.

so, this is done.

it will likely get moved to a sub site and then simplesmj.com will evolve. like the bumper sticker - 'oh evolve' says. okay.

it's not taunting, nor teasing - this is setting things straight. this is letting you all know a little more than i anticipated about myself and who i have become.

it's been twenty years since i graduated high school. i left five days later.

no one really gave too much thought to me - i had/have friends and we always are straight up with each other.

i lost sight over the years. i am not perfect. far from it.

mike - you are younger than me by 60 days - roughly.

sara and i connect - you and i do not.

i hope it is clear. i wish to not talk with you, see you if not necessary, and certainly do not wish to converse with you.

get some programming, get a job, and maybe a new vehicle. perhaps Calvary will stick with you.

i dunno nor do i much care. today is shabbat and i am done with this for the time being.

G-d will place us into a space. That is all i know.

It flows from a moment to a moment. so, i take care of the moments and let the hours take care of themselves.

you have nothing to worry about from me mike. i am a harmless crippled older dude.

are people insane?

2009-05-01T17:05:00.000-07:00

let's just say for instance that i am completely accurate in the use of the power base in the federal and state governments to remind mike what life is about. let's say i am wrong - i have one question for you.

1) what is the point of the people's governments?

a follow up in 1 million three hundred thousand and twelve absurd parts - to start ...

a) what is the symbol of a persons life? what is the worth of americans to americans? what are the reasons that we act as people on this planet, when it is easy for us, who have compasssion and care for each other?

and on ... and on ...

let's say i am as connected today as i state i am.

who is going to make a move against mike? i could track video up to the door and what are you going to do - stoop to his level? harass his wife and kids. even i won't do that.

if there is such a person out there ... let me ask, have you removed the plank in your eyes today? ... forever?

if yes, have at it - the american government would love to find where you are and what you are.

sacrificial lamb mike.

no one wants to be near you, your kids, your wife.

so be it.

do i have any remorse for taking this tact?

none, not one shred.

i love you ksenia because you are a wonderful human being.

i love you sara because you are a truly wonderful human being to me. and i love you too. so much so that you placed yourself into that position. again. maybe you don't want this type of love or this methodology. well, i didn't want to learn that heroin around kids is okay in your mind and i didn't enjoy learning other things that are not for world consumption.

so, mike? america's most wanted ... that would be heaven for you i bet - at this point. someplace to feel hidden still.

in time. you'll get there again - not in Ojai Valley, but somewhere. not where ever i am.

i am a jackass.

what's my name mike?

what are you tryingto say?

2009-05-01T14:19:00.000-07:00

i like the black, i told you your "home" was safe from me, i gave a look to ask - what you received - are you okay. you said fine, yes, and i le3ft you.

i think youy look great.

i am still on bent knee.

what is your call.

i still need space. i am writing. i am fighting. i am loving being alive. it sucks to have so much observation, oh well. Mr President. when you move with several hundred coordinated movements attached to firepower you must feel about as secure as anyone realizing you have the football.

well, mr president. i am borrowing a page from history.

zimm. right jon? well, who is telling the truth? closest to reality?

me or rick?

i am not angry. i was sick to. you just were worst off. sorry bro. had to be done.

good day guerins, frohlichs, shapells, golians jaffes and others who i cherish from afar. i too am savvy if you are.

it has always been saara's choice with me. it still is. i can only say i know where i am and so do you.

i know where you are and where i am not.

i am not conflicted - i am happy to have seen you. you are so incredible. it is a no brainer for me. you?

one though sees itas work, and the other - her lkife.

world - it's not an ultematum. it is reality. karma. dharma.

HaShem. Baruch HaShem.

ahhh yes, helping others ...

2009-05-01T10:11:00.000-07:00

OKAY, IN EVERY EFFORT TO HELP MNYSELF TO A FREE AND HAPPY EXISTENCE I ALLOW MYSELF TO EMPATHIZE WITH OTHERS AND THEIR SITUATIONS.

TAKING THIS CENARIO FURTHER, A FRIEND NEEDS A HELPING HAND, A SHOULDER, AND SOBERIETY. LUCIDITY.

In this role i have fouhnd myself happily flirting again, less remorseeful and therefore better able to forgive to forget to move on, best able. I get there and help a friend reach a place of better wellness, and the center will not admit her.

The 'run' has left just enough of an issue ... just enough of a need to be cautious.

So, 48 to 72 hours of community sobriety then admittance on monday.

this is going to be a different sort of date. i imagine walking on the beach at sunset with two buxum and gorgeous women. hand in hand? how real are you looking for? that is to say - presume based on your statement at coffee - that you are looking and don't disqualify based on age and skiing injury. black diamond? oh, you bet, give me six months and a place to quietly drink coffee -write. you bet.

honesty, starting right from jump, and giving an easy out all in one well thought - poorly written, entry.

2009-04-30T20:05:00.000-07:00

thoughts about helping people

what is the thing that most of us wish for and many of us do not always get?

satisfaction? happiness? joy. blessings from family and friends? the list is as endless as the people who occupy this world.

maybe we find that things are simply as they are without the things around us that matter most. then what, the things that matter most are faith love and hope?

boil it all down and how can a person be anything but happyif they posess but a little of each to renew them daily? what place is then really that much different from another. it is the QUALITY/Qualities of a person that we seek - sure a place too.

i look forward to things that happen o/in the world as if removed, detached. i cannot stay composed there long - the facade crumbles.

if you have found a way - really, then please do share- you'll have the entire global population eating out of your hands. open to anyone, readers.

we want to be accepted of course and we want to be understood.

mostly though, we want to be part of something and be appreciated for our efforts,..

today i helped a mom of twins who no one wanted to help - even herself very much. want to know why i helped her? because she has no one else to.

********** Note this: mom is 30, the father is 20. The twins are maybe 6 months. the father struck - no, beat the mother. they were both drunk. the apt house the lived at is like Chinese, very small and packed with humanity. sure, by american standards luxury and large nearly section 8. so, the cops were called.

CPS now involved and the babies are placed with the fathers mom by the court. this is very serious stuff folks. when the state is in your life to this degree the rights of the people involved are precariously perched at best. and she is a transplanted mom from up north. a rainbow family gathering meeting in the "A" Camp.

Me, this is what i got home to because the house guest that was watching my place in my 3rd 'hiatus' is friendly with this group.

Our paths may not have crossed, i don't believe i would have sought this drama out.

anyway, that's her background, so send out well wishes for a successful program. she really wishes to be with her babies and raise them with her best abilities placed forward and first, not second and last.

people can change. i support her in this effort. *************************88

the weakest link of any community, of any family, of any endeavor is what breaks it.
i've been there and near the weakest link. that weak link (re: rick) is a nuclear link. thankfully diffused.

i am tired.

i want to leave and go to a place where i can be loved, and held safely. i want a family and i want to find a woman who is bold enough to be her beautiful self.

is there anything wrong with that wish? if so, shoot me. if i haven't pissed off the establishment, private business, family solidarity, and given motive to a rapist to erase me - or his pseudo-skin weirdo buddies - get real dudes. white supremacists? you are NOT that - get it, this i know, and it is not you. then, I don't know who else to piss off? so, why bother trying, that's the way i really enjoy being: laid back and cool. catlike and loyal like a dog.

and, i am great on road trips because i can see a man (woman) or what and who they basely are, and don't tend to get car sick.: i am a writer, i am not too bad too look at, and i definitely enjoy loving.

i am a guy: i go hiking, biking, scuba, and gym. i survive, i thrive, i know business and have ways to keep my lights on and my room paid.

i got the package, it's just a little sore - The sore of a broken heart. the body, whatever. =keep me stoned and i'm good.

i also am done yelling in fear. i have the right pill to reduce the fear factor. not too much else, actually the opposite.

and it's all low dosage and low toxicity stuff too. like 30 years or longer on the market.

all i really wish i could find was a gorgeous, big-brained, mother-oriented partner who takes little shit, holds her toungue when she thinks she may have made an error, and one who is not afraid of seeing the world.

after sitting on my ass for 5 years, i have a few destinations in mind.

should do mountains now and later too... i love them; islands, beaches, meadows, cities, suburbs ... i'm easy to relocate and i am confident in myself to sit at home with the guys, a game, a film, or a dog and just be still.

i love animals. and i am honest - i don't always love the truth, but you will understand that i am real.

if i am told i have support, i beleive them. if it goes south, i can clean up my own mess.

do i search out messes and wish to create unwholy chaos? no.

so, there it is.

our person running amok for two weeks is in a safe, secure place where she will receive help she requested and went to voluntarily. she had a nice day at the beach, a burger, and some water.

i had the same and my meds - keeping it real.

that's it. {NOW at 8:52 PM i learn she is releaseed from the hospital with no place to go, She called me and I am going to get her, then take her tomorrow to the care facility - again.}

I would do this all night long if this would get a human being right.>>

i am tired. i am sore, i am going to have a second beer, wait to see if anyone shows up to hang with and if not, shower movie, bed. Scratch that. had that already and now done eating at home - no problem.

i am really wishing to follow up with my third time charmer. you know, it could be fun we seem to have that spark. huh?

you struck a chord ONLY because i see it's validity from the past. meaning lightning struck more than once. i'm really sore - so, beware. i tend to want to cuddle.

oh, world, at this last posting i haven't yet been shot down on the text message for dinner on Saturday. Comments ... nah, we got it, thanks though. ;-)

"links" and "refusal to sacrifice"

2009-04-30T09:17:00.000-07:00

Thank you Mr President

I hope to one day see The OurLinks Foundation consider the opportunity to purchase leases for fleet management of Chrysler vehicles for a symbol of America's strength is in fact what it means to ... "get up, dust off, and {get on with living well}." A bit of embellishment - alliteration and other devices to hold our attention. Thank you again sir.

Good Day/Night neighbors.

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yes, rick ... what about the early bankruptcy? what was that all about mr frohlich? ms guerin-frohlich. mr rosenblum mr rhodes mr goldrich mr guerin mr ryan dr guerin - did you learn what you wanted to learn?

Was all this worth the pain and effort to find the truth? fine. look at all the potential positive and proactive love faith and hope these moves show. these are bold and big and honest. what can you point to in your lives that is this amazing? i am illustrating the morning drive and knx-1070

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it is unfortunate readers that to safely work through these issues with opt in only involvement causes facts to be related in a way that references are available to memories of certain readers - not the majority. please, find my image below and the link to the court case. that is a more structured presentation. thanks.

Alcohol Awareness Month

2009-04-29T11:18:00.000-07:00

I suppose learning about this today is better late than never?

Also, Ksenia, how could you or Mom possibly blame anyone here honey?

We are looking at the future. Together with your mom. We simply are not able to be around each other now. That's her call. She is exhausted and i wish you both so much joy together. Honey, you are doing great too. In everything.

Both of you.

I am not a person guilty of a crime rising to the level of a felony. I lost a felony verdict. It compels me to take different tacts in taking to task myself in developing this case. People ask why Mike McCullar and ksenia are involvved. The anser is because when a CIVIL case rises to this level and there is cclear evidence to suggest a circumstantial link in a case relyng on this type of evidence I am allowed a broader range of information. You are a mean man, and you need to faceyour truth. People are safer knowing who you are and what you're capable of more now thatn ever. Your step daughter and daughter are getting to developing and they have friends and those friends will be allowed around you.

You must be on blast. THAT IS HOW WE DO IT.

THIS IS HOW IT IS GETTING DONE. SEE, MY SAFETY WAS LESS AFTER BEING =PLACED= NEAR YOU.

This month was a difficult one. Sara's dad lives in Mexico and thinks that living a lifestyle of running will continue to bring happiness. All it has brought is a lot of denial and pain.

And, it has brought my friend into this world too. So, Christopher Golian and Dani E. (Thomas?) Golian i wish you and your son well. I wish you and your daUghter well.

I wish you would get sober and stay sober and own up to the reality. You are a capitalist ALCOHOLIC WHO HAS ISSUES WITH HIMSELF AND THE "SYSTEM" and you need to stop with the hypocrisy. You are hurting people that love you still.

I had dinner with you, we sat and broke bread. i TELL YOU TRUE. I asked Sara some very sensitive questions after that meeting. I had to tell you I was on parole because of Ms Thompson's new Special Condition (L).

A twist and turn later and it appears that ALL of you people require some intensive therapy for psychological services.

You have nothing to lose. Everything to gain. I still think it is a sham - so is air travel. However, it does FEEL better flying and it does GET MY THERE QUICKER.

Life is described as getting too fast and other such descriptions Do you think so? Why, or why not?

oops

2009-04-28T22:05:00.000-07:00

Today the world was shockled as a 747 buzzed the lower NYC skyyline.

Yes, perhaps the taste was poor and definitely the call was stupid. Yet, this is not State Dept stuff - or is it?

Well ... where will we go from here?

I for one thought of lovely and most amazing places today. Of course, Ojai now being a little more like it was when I first got here.

Man, Ksenia, don't get me wrong - you are wonderrful and i definitely have a crush on you. But, baby, it is your mom that makes my skies a cloudless, deep, and an eternal blue all of the time. In a word - awesome.

She is one really special woman-girl and you always let me know if I can ever be of any help to you or to her. If this was messy - i do sincerely hope that you keep the faith in people and realize that love can and does set the records straight. Sweetie, love is messy though. It is the persevernce of those relationships through the messiness that allows people to bond together to stay together and to play with each other nicely.

Always play nicely ksenia. My personal belief is to ALWAYS tell the truth right when things are going down. Of course, choosing my friends wisely and this means honestly with myself first - foremost. Most important.

Also, have a friend to call when you need an out. If no friend - call the cops. ASAP. Do NOT TALK - ie flirt - TO men who show an interest in you when you are under 18 and they are over 18.

Do not encourage your parents to push you out.

Do not lie, cheat, steal.

Sing Counting Crows with your mom. She has a great voice.

Go see the whales migrating.

Tell the truth when asked questions in courts of law. ALWAYS.

Tell the truth.

Remember, a SECRET is only that if NO ONE but you knows.

You are dearly loved and adored.

Sara.

Our relationship begins to change again. You feel that - do you not? Like our bracelets and connection discussions. Well well well. Things are changing.

Good night Mr President Madame First Lady, and Senator Fienstein. Goodnight Ms Clinton.

Buzzing a tower with a 747 is interesting. We were once in the market for a 737. I wonder if that was ever consummated?

Rick?

135 mountain view oak view 93022

2009-04-28T16:16:00.000-07:00

next... confirmation, then subpoena. ETA .... hours, or days. I am a jackass, aren't i?

not sure who is more upset ...

2009-04-27T16:53:00.000-07:00

You, Tana, Mike, the Frances, The Laurel Springs School Staff during the 96-97 season. People today involved still with keeping a lid on things from a NON COMPETITIVE nature? Wanna bet?

I am thinking that it will be the "first" young woman I will find in Montana? Mike raped and had a child: for Tana was who today confirmed for me so very much on the bridge - so gracious of you.

Did you enjoy our little meeting dear heart? I did not.

I spent a moment thinking to stop and chat, but that is not professional. I am professional if nothing else.

Yes. the white truck. Yes, MOUNTAIN VIEW STREET the dead end side going down the hill, on the left. Thank you. I'll be around to gather the address later, just a heads up.

The Sheriff's will serve for the three of you there. I have yet to determine what i am doing about Sara. not that your business has anything to do with us. me, rather. and, perhaps, if you two really think for a change - really. I mean NO and I'm telling MIKE TO STOP - OBVIOUSLY THAT JUST IS BEYOND YOU TWO AS A RESPONSIBLE FAMILY UNIT TO UNDERSTAND - AT THIS TIME. Hopefully, you can broaden your horizons, branch out of the Calvary and maybe realize you might have a little guilt here to assuage. Maybe reach instead of into UNASHAMED LOVE to responsible family planning?

What? Tana, are you working on another of yours with him, plus Jenna by your first, and the of course my absolute joy in this world - ksenia. Have you stopped declaring her on your welfare rolls?

You know what i want? Stop declaring her on your welfare rolls. Pay her funding for college and for Thacher -like tuition should she wish it. I am working on it.

Mike, have you begun to understand the minor inconvenience you cause me in this world.

This is less time than a 4th cup of coffee. Thank you two. You are made for each other as they say.

Now, you should really think about relocating from the valley - in other words, leave the Ojai Valley - go see the world. Like France maybe - It seems to suit Roman Polanski. My opinion, doesn't mean it's right because i have that opinion, even though i have the right to have it. huh? jackass.

Leave the 805.

Just leave, Mike. Get it - FEEEELLLLL it yet. Want to?

What is it? I have a vanilla jacket and have ATTORNEY RIGHTS in this case and think about the Bahamas as a weekend getaway. Do you know where these islands are located on this planet mike? Are you on this planet. Of course, want to know how i found you first? You led me home the night the cop followed you back last week.

Oh, Tana, i waved at the cops who know what i am doing as i passed him cruising into the Meiners Oaks as I was driving out, into town.

Sara, do you see why they had to have so MUCH freaking contact with me? Who do you trust ... me to do what i say, knowing the most i can know to operate as effectively for us as possible? Do you get any of this yet? Are you past the 15-16-17 years old stage now?

Are you approaching more quickly the reality. I am working on our behalf with less then perfect knowledge - relying on my gut. Baby, when i rely on that gut and that little boost from the knock on my head - well, sara, i won't likely need to come through the world school of souls again. This little trek through 38 years feels pretty complete today. pretty good karma for a change.

Yeah, i know what happened. we know. you are out of the hostage crisis.

12 fucking years. President Barack Obama, and First Lady Michelle Obama, do you realize what Senator Fienstein will have briefed you on by now? Ms. Clinton? Sara actually likes you - see her MySpace, I do.

Not evey day, 'cause that would be obsessive? right ;-)

Faith, Hope, Love - with these you will get by. Drop ANY OF THEM, and your posing days may likely be less lovely - sucks to be watched when you have something to hide Mike, really sucks.

Ask Rick Frohlich or Paul Guerin, Matthew Rhodes, or Jonathon Goldrich. Maybe Dana Guerin-Frohlich, Dr Lisa Geurin or Tim Ryan. Ask Vera Guerin. Ask the Little Hoover Commission.

The ones who say they don't know me are the Commission. All the rest - oh yes, PTSD.

Maybe they'll be the most/more upset. Because NOW, NOW Mike, you bring down their wrath too - because if it wasn't for your threat on me at a delicate time, well, that little thing you pulled is just what you did to make Ksenia. The Light of the world is in her eyes, not your loathing, not your jealousy. That is what prompted me and Sara to go batty.

He still wishes to Fuck You. Sorry, Mike, I think that fantasy is even farther beyond reality than my own desire to be loving Sara. Don't blame you, maybe it was a bad hair day ...

You are correct, Tana. Yes, I am Scott Mitchell Jaffe and you two are going to come to a little court room drama. You sent home soooo much drama by making little Ksenia absolutely manic after your visits. Getting back what you gave? I don't use children as Trojan Horses dick head. I'll come straight up into your house through the good ole computer. The best part ... you'll be guiding me in.

What would I want in all this madness? only to be watching Ksenia become a gorgeous woman, able to make autonomous decisions based on right human relations, NOT A FORCER and chicanery, and not a liar and fake.

"Don't PANIC"

2009-04-27T06:44:00.000-07:00

Begin today with a note about the number 42.

Adams, Douglas wrote THE HITCHHIKERS GUIDE TO THE GALAXY. The trilogy, in 5 parts, describes the ultimate answer. Of which one who is interested realizes is 42. The question: "What is the answer to life ...?" Check it out for yourself.

Anyway. That's what this site is like to a degree. Gives the answer but leaves you guessing - annoyingly, perhaps, for the question. I cannot offer any different for this is the way it was presented to me. It was creepy and a head game.

In love, and war . . . is All fair?

I take time to stop too

2009-04-24T13:53:00.001-07:00

Perhaps you, reader, believe I never stop going on about this past issue. Perhaps you are correct too.

I re-read emails sent to people in LA and Sara and copies to myself and some family. Emails going back to August 2008. Things were in the height of the nervous collapse at that time.

Sara and I had split - badly, several times. each time a little less friendly than the previous. It is a real stretch to believe we can reconcile sometime, someday. I almost called her for some help today - actually. Not emergency, just the type of errand stuff though that we did together when we did have success. It must be stated that between January and Later June 2008 Sara and I were together constantly. We were living together, driving on errands together, eating together, and loving together. Oh, we were a real family. We simply had no longevity. The external stressors to the new relationship, the mental traumas she and i still deal with to a greater or lessor degree, and the reality of daily present living all were stretching me pretty thin. Though, add the absolute bitch girlfriend who wishes i would disappear, so much so she talks trash in front of the daughter about me - and Sara ... just let's her go on. Why? Talk about creepy head games though - i mean really ... i am at a loss.

I never learned why? Though now I have my suspicions.

We had all the medical supports, the psyche services, and the protection of the Constitution. We blew it. We blew it together. Each of us had a part to play here and i failed mine due to many levels of life.

Timing. Well, i am sad for the bad emails to friends and family - those were nasty. I am saddened for my minor collapse. It did not lead to jail, nor to prison - both of those were placed upon my person unfairly and are the subject of the court battle. That same battle that Sara's ex placed himself into the middle of.

I almost called Sara today to ask her for friendhsip and help. For a chance to make things right.

I didn't ... I just let her know with all the rest of you how I feel and what is going on today. parole is officially over.

I have no number active in the State of California other than my DMV and SSN.

Tying ends off

2009-04-23T08:37:00.000-07:00

The impermanence embedded in living denotes this statement - this excellent example of written vomit. This need to 'publish' a nearly daily expose of real issues in family and community - drivel say some. The worst kind of reporting say others. Still, brilliant comes out of mouths. Still, I am seen as not foe, rather as friend. At least a friendly - in terms military...one who is not engaged in aversive action(s) against personal autonomy.

"Don't tread on me!" in quotable words.

The ends are tied - not too firmly it is hoped. In doing so, this site evolved out of a need to feel safe. It takes out of context the past to profile the present. The relevance is not lost in this replacement. The truth is 'self-evident' and needs to be so.

It is described above what appears to be one event. No. The TRO and the trial takes place in 2003 in Los Angeles. It has nothing to really do with the events of 2007/2008/ and today. People and times seem to overlap in hind sight their boundaries were especially close in the mid 90s.

This writer - a principal participant - and the people described herein are from the range of the west coast and the mid west - the east coast - the deep south, and the plains states are included in descriptions of those actions that shaped us.

It should have been seen that these days would come to pass. Perhaps these days were not seen because the intelligence around the issues and people is not so that it would challenge the morality today of those highly unethical actions herein described - of course past. In this real life exploration it is endeavoured to find the common truths that are amongst these people - these truths INFLUENCE children's lives greatly and MUST be fully and BOLDLY examined now.

There are people whom can suppress the hardships of the past and function rather well. Only crumbling when the reality of the past is fully revealed to them, and only for a momentary collapse. these are the warriors and the warrior princesses of our species.

The days without a closeness to these people brings pain and joy. The choices though of the people to be violent, stupid, dangerous - all indicate desire for non-violence at this point.

A lesson for the world then is contained herein. Caution reader - you will need to wade through elements that have little point of reference and therefore make little sense. They do have MEANING though, and some GET IT maybe more so than they wish too.

With that then explained it is hoped and prayed that you do not wish to kill the messenger and also realize that before the messenger - this writer was bodily threatened by a man with a history of violent intents and actions. That action is THE ONLY ACTION this writer is concerned with today. Though, his PAST is littered with the remains of people he violently and physically assaults, molests, and rapes.

Yes: there are two stories - though - the proximity in life these people have is just too cohesive to be fully random. Meaning this writer is more a believer in a divineness, a larger than life and death entity, an awareness - G-d, HaShem, Dharma ... whatever - something.

Glad you are here - thanks for stopping by and reading some, please return and use the issues to talk amongst your communities, your families.

Notes about this site.

2009-04-22T11:02:00.000-07:00

1) This is like my writers notebook. This is a site i have utilized for roughing out my feelings about a trial in civil court and the ramifications of outing a rapist.

2) The two are connected because after all, life is intertwined and messy.

3) Find the link under my image and read a description of the case.

4) Thanks for stopping by. I appreciate your interests and share a desire for safer communities and smarter decision making from the youthful of our kind. Earthlings.

5) Wish for people to stand up and do the right thing - for a change. NOt all people, some people. The vast majority of us are in a fog it appears most of the time. The human potential is being suppressed in favor of the packaged and mass produced.

sacrificial lamb?

2009-04-18T12:03:00.000-07:00

Mike: how does it feel?

I KNOW what may happen and you do not. I have at least years advance knowledge of what may occur in your miserable existence.

You have the power and control to change that: your people do not wish the retribution of God upon there Calvary Home. And bytheway, that IS NOT what Ksenia meant by "my Father's house" it is my "father's house". That was the little person reference to truth.

I am heading to realize that there is knowledge and then there is KNOWLEDGE. I am not a predator, though, I have learned to understand who they are and where they lurk. I have been given a blessing and we are able to keep an eye on him. Fine. Get ready to receive for at least two, and in every effort, three.

Our choices. She deserves the truth and a really fresh start before she begins to act out due to all the bullshit and lies and deceit. I did not move here to endorse this livestyle and i will not go to jail for taking a stand this time.

"Placebo Domingo". A tenor, he's been mentioned today and I believe that my "new" friends might have a little more global communications ability than even my little family.

Then there's my family. I think you may own me an apology and statement of truth. I wish to have acknowledgement on the Deforestation of Jamaica paper.

Also, I wish the Ruckus Crew to go screww themselves and then provide affidavits. Freely and willingly, Do NOT make me search you all out. I will. The court has given me the go ahead in the timing of thiss and I want my life back. So, either you help or you hurt the solution.

Don't take too long. My patience is a little thin these days with childish games from aduls who need to provide learning models. If you can show me that sort of real change Mike then perhaps one day you will not live in fear of what you are and who may not like that. It is out of my hands.

Apprpriate. You sit all shift upon gas tanks. Highly explosive ones. Just an observation. See Mike, Sara, Ksenia, Frances. I was trained in very good programs to notice the needs of the smaller people in this world.

I could not do military service due to physical. I went into teaching. Igave back until the reality of this system is clearer to me. Broken. But salvageable. Mike, you are perhaps beyond salvageable. Do you realize what that means to many people in this world.

Global buddy. What is my name. Do you KNOW my name yet Mike. I am SCOTT JAFFE. I give as good as I get and many times a whole lot better. Which you, no comaprison. Rosie should be tyour best friend for like twenty years. Tana, what do you think?

I saw the open red ferrari today and the boot was the open portion.

Toasted - toasty yet, Mike?

2009-04-17T14:48:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, you were simply getting a lift from work to home by your lady. YOu must have made me walking a split second before I you.

But today. Well, folks at home. Where is work? and who is Mike.

yes, well, he is the sandy haired, blue eyed- heavyset breeder attendant at the Valero Gas Mart on the corner of Drown and Main in Ojai. He looks dumpy in green, because now he is fat. fat fat fat. He drives green. He belongs in red. RED RED RED.

So, they place you or did you search it out?

Cause Sara was placed and you had prior knowledge of all her personal issues. That is not part of this story.

You are a predatory human Mike and you single out young and vulnerable girls in the margins of life. I can not stand to look at you and if i drive out of gas and have only Valero gas, i will haveto, i say ... have t'walk a thousand stinking miles. i will not purchase Valero until you voluntarily leave it. Firing him will not count.

And it JUST SO Happens to be at the end of the street i live on? Drown Avenue. I feel oh so lucky to write the subpeona and serve it while looking at your face. Okay in the eyes Sara, just a dick otherwise. I'd have turned the schmuck in for the heroin. Oh yeah, remember, ther was a mother and two boys living there in Oak View when Sara met Mike and Mike preplanned raping Sara.

Yeah, he's the connect.

What are you going to do about it Mike? Hey, you Mike. That the closest you wanna get to my house now? I am so angry with your indecency Mike. You lack of simple respect. She is the mother of one of your children. Not a concubine. You are not a czar. you are a man in the employ of a company that in a short order will find you repulsive. which you are of course.

The same home you invited yourself into without an invitation to help with rocks and water to make a garden. Ksenia brought us that bit of loving family-styled harmony.

I happen to live in side of two 8 foot tall hedges and a six foot fence. Impossible to see into area from the street.

I can not imagine the look on your face when your realize what i saw today and who it was in the same white truck locking you down. Mike, you had your back to me for nearly three minutes and then stared into my eyes with the recognition of a humbled man.

Mike. Fuck you.

Mike and Tana McCullar - Green MiniVan, loads of right to life stickers on back gate.

2009-04-16T15:08:00.001-07:00

Glad to see you got to that passenger taillight Mike.

Pull that shit with me one more time pal. Please. Buzz me like that, come on search me out Michael.

Lets get it on pal.

Meet me, at my house day or night.

Stick in town, please. let me serve you a ticket to come to court.

Buddy - oh and how that is loosely applied.

Buddy, i sent to the Attorney General my deposition which is kept in that office forever.

FOREVER.

You took sacred oaths and then you tried to kill her and ksenia.

Bastard.

Come to me Mike.

Let's dance.

Or, and my p[ersonal option - wait to court and then tell me what it is we "have to talk about" and what it is you want on my side of this valley.

Again, only in GPS reference Mike, I own nothing.

Oh, man, you are a star. its what you always wanted.

Me, oh Mike, you can't imagine what it is i want out of this little piece of this puzzle.

You threatened me on father's day.

I blast you, your daughter, your ex, your wife - and what do you do?

Move to a new location and stalk me?

Mike, I know this charge and you buddy are VERY CLOSE to getting me to focus some more of my business day upon making a case against you.

I have become not a vigilante, not a cop sympathizer - i have become a man.

Mike - man up. Wanna talk? Do it - here i am. AND I AM NOT SLEEPING SICK AFTER TRAVEL YOU PRICK!

yes, rage ... you are so lost and so confused . all you do is poison all around you. i want to see you well Mike. Can you get well?

Can you take my rage and use it positively for a change?

Mike? What do you want?

You saw me? You saw the Ferrari? Of course, she was driving. Mike ... that's mine - sorta - see the J007 on the back, on the plate? It meant I have some bigger backing then I had once imagined. I took a hit people. I did not stalk anyone. we are coming to balance again. ;-)

Get it yet Mike? Are you positive or negative. Are you a poser, a fake, a phony? yes, you are. Will you always be? I dunno. not for me to really care to much about.

So, you are on the radar and you did come REALLY close to me today. We saw each other and I took the middle of the road waving the deposition pages in the mailing envelope.

You are going to live on the "informal" rapist list forever Mike. Publivally, and very much in the open.

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Gentle readers. I am so undone by this bullshit drama. Steel yourself ... maybe Mike wants to play. Again.

accusations and understandings

2009-04-16T10:26:00.000-07:00

When i was a camper at a place called sea gull i was once accused of staring at a young red-headed girl in a "creepy" way. i was 12 and the girl was a long ways down the field. also, these two girls and i also were classmates at school. so maybe a little reverse discrimination type kid stuff was going on. like why are you so weird in school, but are way popular up here?

12 year olds.

i received a text reply from Sara who asked me to not "play creepy head games".

i agreed. maybe it is me after all. too non-mainstream for the majority of people in my world. it causes me to be misunderstood - or - encourages me to continue to be so. i suppose this makes the ability to be perceived as "creepy" and "weird" on mostly my self.

i got that concept a long time ago. so, perhaps it is the circumstances rather than the players here that are creepy. of course with the exception of the rapist. he is creepy.

what am i to do?

continue to live with a broken heart and not place any disquiet for this into Sara's space - i mean as little as necessary. don't go beyond the needs here is what i tell myself daily. don't saturate her with txt msgs. don't pay gobs of money to PIs to follow her around. Don't talk to her contract employers about what is "really' going on. and that is hard because i have coffee with them at the same place. well not exactly with them, but near enough so that when i strategize with pros i am friendly with earshot can't be helped. and of course ojai is a small town. not as small as pepper pike, ohio, but more contained...

by the way world, i was encouraged for years to write a story about PP. I restrained myself because it is where i continue to live at times. and so the application is here as well. do NOT shit where you eat scott.

but world, what if i have the runs and the squirts just won't stop until i FEEL better?

how many more in this world will i cause harm to if i am not well in myself? you?

if my energy is uncentered and ungrounded then i am pushing out of myself into the space of the world my internal disquiet. that sucks and is not fair to the rest of us! who else is dpoing that too?

see...

i really have little choice here. Sara and i conceived and i have never done that in my whole entire sordid and absolutely messed up life until i met her.

never.

i am so sorry to you all i can not stop. WE HAD A RIGHT TO BE TOGETHER DURING THE TIME THE THREE OF US AND KSENIA WERE IN THAT FAMILY-WAY. I had not broken the laws containing any contact whatsoever with Guerin.

I just want to be near Sara, and that's all i really still want. My wants though are crap and my desires are shit because they are not reciprocated. existing in a vacumm is stoopid/stupid and, i earned that feeling that she has for me. the one that tells her to not want to be near me.

i loath myself for that weakness. my tantrum weakness. nervous or not, a temper tantrum at any age is inappropriate. it is hurtful and immature and i need to stop.

i will hold that hurt for my entire life Sara. i had thought i had hit rock bottom more than once in my life.

nope. hurting you in my fear - my stinking panic. that is the lowest feeling ever.

if this is creepy - to spend time really examining my behaviours and what i have as a result. well, then guilty - i need to be the best i can be for all of us.

staring across a field and chow hall at a pretty girl when my confidence was 12 - yeah, i can see that as creepy too.

sea gull was my haven - and when those two worlds collided - school and camp - no more top of the world feelings. that's what it means to be alive too. changing and adapting to the things we haven't power to stop.

i am powerless to stop this now. I have great strength and little power to utilize it, at this time.

some good will come of this - you'll see.

does freedom feel different?

2009-04-13T18:44:00.000-07:00

the Wendy's food tasted pretty darn good.

a friend needed a shoulder today at juvi court. she has two babies - twins - and a very immature babies father. so i know them both and like her idea of making a stand for what is important - her children. reunification with them specifically.

Sara and i connected today. no head games - fo sho hon.

its especially ironic to this 'writer' - the issues that compel this case to be one of interest and merit are the very same that wish to see it removed from existence.

i cannot stop this anymore than i can feel any more remorse - any more self loathing regarding the perception i play 'head games'. this entire site and my existence in some eyes has got to be so sad, so under potential that they would scream if they were any more interested than watching paint dry. though, this is something more than paint and it has teeth and it seems to have caught the attention of quite a few people.

people who, if it is okay to remind, are paid state salaries to track and keep copious records of what this site and the others say. it helps them to see my intent and the strategies i may employ.

so Sara, no, because the state has found my writing to have merit i am a writer. not a 'writer'. and i am published. drivel. sure. what else to start with - something raw to work with - something fresh to play with - words are THINGS people are NOT THINGS.

so, dear, i am torn - i wish to leave it , bury it. but i cannot: it is out, it is up, and every single thing i ever said to you was truth.

literally and figuratively. if you won't acknowledge further then i have to ask why. what is going on with you?

i want the world to understand. if you ever again told me that you were carrying our child - a second. i would not let the first go Sara. i will continue to leave to you what you know best - how you work in this world. i trust you and love you.

i do not expect a thing in return - other than the truth and your cooperation. tall order, you'll be fine.

when you are asked - just tell the truth. and if something gets left off and it is important - SCREAM it at me! I would love to hear that scream - because you are IMPORTANT.

reality check: no one has my child in them at this time to my awareness. we txted today and her "penny 4 her thought" was "let it alone, "no cops" to serve papers, "no more head games."

there world, now i move on in freedom.

freedom feels great because Sara and i connected today.

because i connected with many other people today too.

later, I'll catch you up on the juvi courts response when i was found to have paraphernalia on me. i was passed through the check point and inside the atrium did in fact have drug tools, no med, for some time...

what was interesting was not the actual way the sheriffs handled it - it was the back chatter that is worthy of mention.

check back tomorrow. not more soapy drama i hope.

clearing for the weekend.

2009-04-10T13:39:00.000-07:00

going hiking world. over the weekend. taking a spiritual walk to a place where once a friend lived.

well, the following entry makes very little sense to new readers. surprise.

again, look for the Jaffe v Thompson link, over to the right.

Some of the entries below are okay, others are crap. Read at your own risk. Under my image you'll find that link. thanks for stopping by.

UPDATED SUNDAY MORNING APRIL 12, 2009 - ALL PEOPLE: Question your own morality, before questioning others.

PRELIMINARY dramatis personae

Scott Mitchell Jaffe Protagonist,human being - jackass, intelligent (not always smart), loyal to a fault, and a bit self righteous - though with {enough?} humility.

Eric A Frohlich Character foil. "Rick" is in recovering addict to pharmaceutical painkillers and illicit street drugs. Married EXTREMELY wealthy and utilized resources to cover -up physical side effects of addiction(s) to polysubstance and abuse. Addicted wife to co-dependency and encouraged friends to follow in all ways. dangerous and highly manipulative. history of closest friendships ending in death as result, in part, to influences introduced to core group by himself. Highly toxic and acidic when "caught" in his and her (wife) own web(s).

Ksenia Golian (McCullar) Child. Former Friend of protagonist. Former housemate and daughter to Sara Golian and Mike McCullar. Person whom "Rick" is now accountable to be honest and truthful. The compelling lynch-pin-like position held by Ksenia may even compel the Ruckus Crew to at least drift towards affidavits. The import of this young person is not at all lost upon anyone. Thank G-d for you dear heart. Structured drama, likely what your mother really dislikes - not drama per se, unstructured drama - not in her control drama. This is what Sara Golian can't stand.

Sara Tatiana Golian It is this person whom so many are getting really interested in hearing from. Yet, she is at wits end. The mistake in calculation may have been in involving the young Miss C Moyer to the picture. This harlot of sorts and in every way a representative likeness of a young Sara? Very young Sara. The compelling need to understand this character - THIS HUMAN BEING - is to compasionately engage with the need to know. The morbidity of the past is indeed rank fodder for the present. Superlative young woman. A brilliant survivor and despretely wanting to simply have quiet to sleep off the jet lag from 12 years ago. Hard to believe a case of jet lag can last that long hmmm?

Court is never a place to take the secrets people. If your secrets are secrets - NO ONE knows about it but you!

Anything else is fair game - capice ...

critical mass

2009-04-10T07:45:00.000-07:00

intent.

what is a critical element of dynamics between us? the ATOM? is this why we as an organism are able to pursue with such rancor that which so stimulates us on the vibrational level of the ATOM?

how the heck does one learn to PassOver the urges of baseness in an effort to reach a state of healing the world and charity. does charity for the self mean a thing within the indiviual - highly individual - definition of itseelf? for me - yes, i attempt to succeed at that harmonic.

this topic gets along to quantum mechanics, string theory, superstring theory, CERN, and all sorts of stuff technical. Essentially, I am getting to this point: I have utilized the social nets of the time to reach an audience of readership to make a critical mass.

why? for which issue within the large text? i can't begin to remove the intertwining relationships and dynamic feedback loops: positive and negative are now out of my control.

reading further - drilling down into this morass below will not bring a single drop of affection for me - i promise that and it frustrates me. simply be - cause i don't find it amusing nor do i find it a career path i would have taken if this wrong had been righted at the time.

This is about not keeping quiet. REMEBER THE SHOAH! If these types of things are left to the darkness and the depths in which they live then we will all be unsafe for that sort of silence.

I do not begrduge the immature and non-adult decisions as they occured. who was the advisor? herself. the mchiavellian lee g?. ex-state dept during Clinton, and earlier? What did he find out? What is the truth? Abut the past it matters to the present and when a vibration hums within a 11.5-yr old to tell a near stranger this detail in the precense of her mother and mother does not confront the truth - again, but to make RATIONALZATIONs and to accept blame; this is classic syndrome and a place of deep anguish - i sensed this - i feel in love deeply with she who holds this pain.

yes, i am a jackass and far. far worse world. though, my heart remains loving and soft, in most cases.

man, i swear, it takes every ounce of humilty and forgiveness in my self for my self for becoming embroiled in such mishigas. it was around in 7th grade and we all Know that surface descriptions will inform that pepper pike was like a blizzad most of the year.

well, times past. reading further you will realize two things: 1) I am not a good writer, 2) there are embedded issues here that take place a long time ago. they will be aired out - like bad cigar smoke in a vegas motel room. milling out a story i am learning takes time and face.

this is a story nearing critical mass. i connect through FB, MySpace, this site and the Knol. if the facts are in error the fault is mine alone. though, gentle peer, i have a very high tensil strength to my mind - i have taken alot of stuff over the years and of the aggregate - ALL of it - this piece of learning nearly snapped me. This is a story of hostage crisis, business dealings, places where many will wish the story would go away.

I did not snap. I cried, i screamed, i cursed, i said horribly mean things - and, then i stopped being afraid of the truth that stares me in the face and i looked and i listened. i listened too late for a salvage to a relationship with sara. unless sara makes a move to reconnect: either way the story will need to stand on its own merits.

this is not her story nor mine, it's all of ours and this is the type of story that needs to be looked at because of the pieces. the adults making decisions the parents making choices, the children following - rebelling - screaming for affection belonging and love.

this is a story of jews and persecution. this is a story of the state embedding itself into the life of the lower level lifestyles of crime and ignorance. it is about a person - me - getting caught up with a high GPA and loads of innocence in a system not designed to accommodate challenge on academic levels..

This is a story that when it is seen as a larger context we will all thank sara for mainting her compusre all these years.

i got here exactly when i did. we met exactly when HaShem guided us to. Our hearts are very broken and mending - the world can be so hard when our parents clearly say we aren't wanted. I know Sara's pain - for it was also mine. today's image - different? yes. The past, can never be erased.

enjoy the peace and quiet of your new hideaway. it's sanctuary that i respect and i respect your's.

happier reading and as the say ' I feel yah! '

Respect

2009-04-09T08:10:00.000-07:00

I often wonder how many readers question my motives, intentions, drives in pursuing this issue. Briefly.

To develop any good cause one needs to put a 'face' on the issue. Sara, are you ready to become this individual in a personae dramatis fashion.

Hon, re-read our Shakespeare ... strength in love.

Images of the principles are readily available.

I've aksed, begged, cajoled and demanded that those around me become accountable as i have been demanded of essentially.

To our gentle readers - you will soon be getting a clearer picture. 96 hours to discharge of parole.

Are you ready to be mature about what needs to be done? Sara.

World, I have been to the very thresh-hold of sending an email to Sara directly, though this is much more respectful. She is aware this page is up, that it is updated regular, and that i am like the worst coker spainiel ever. You realize they may have the worst bite of any domesticated dog? The jaw locks and is even more difficult to "unlock" that a Pit's.

Aryeh, i miss you. Chirpy too.

Sara has a myspace people. Sara writes of not liking drama, lies, or people being -un-real with her. Sara will allow all this to occur and then claim that she wasn't a cause or a participant - no, simply a voyeur?

Look, i'm not judging ... that is not my purpose. My purpose is taking those to task who illegally claimed domain over my physical person when it was not theirs and i had little option but to submit.

Sara, you got beautiful Ksenia from yours. I got Jaffe v Thompson et al.

Did anyone attempt to deny yours to you? Yes, Thompson and Embry denied you yours. Three Sheriff's depts that you explained a message that never reached me hold a karmic accountability.

World, i wan confusing again - apologies. Sara will get the ref.

It's time to get real Sara. This is where the rubber meets the road.

Of course I am seeking damages. I did earn 1000 daily and 370 days were taken illegally. That's fact. I don't care what or who is broke - no one cared about us.

Let Ksenia's potential sibling's life mean something - i miss you both. yes fixated on my work, don't begrudge this 10th career of mine and i won't begrudge you yours. thank you.

In the place we call home - in front of children and others.

2009-04-08T08:06:00.000-07:00

April 3, 2007 Eight days after an EIGHTH AMENDMENT grievance went to Oakland for dispensation AOR Thompson arrested as a reprisal for responsible use of 602 process.

In a place as bucolic as Ojai to have this occur in daylight is horrendous. Many people were made to feel uncomfortable. That day. Layer this with the echoes of similar types of injustice and inhumanity towards others in Sara's life and maybe one can appreciate the overload that was felt.

Excuses and rationalizations aside, FACTS are facts and in this case, one only requires circumstance and enough "likelihood" of the events as reality-based.

In a very few days my life will again take on a new form and function - trust and believe though that decorum and modicum are stalwartly and steeped deeply into my psyche. I wish only for the best and have a grounding in Right Human Relations.

pulling it together

2009-04-04T11:55:00.000-07:00

The banner above describes a very recent element in my life.

IF the man had not threatened me, THEN he would not be on my focus list.

I have a significant ability to persevere in a civil rights action at court right now. Trial is still on calendar and it is no longer APRIL 2009. This means I have plenty of TIME to pursue what FACTS will show conclusively my causes of action are valid.

Due to this point of contact with me, the above described moron caused me to make a police report. This constituted contact with police and due to my custody status I needed to report to my agent in parole (state) that contact.

So, shall I subpeona him to testify as to what occurred from his point of view?

When I make a decision as to what to do about this minor wrinkle - perhaps we will all feel a bit more relieved. Indesisiveness is really draining on the store of hope one has. In many ways I am shedding so much of what i was. approaching a milestone event in my life soon - all these people who really didn't know me are now wondering - or beginning to - will I write about them in my "story"?

Reader, I could not have daydreamed and designed this in any classroom in any school in any decade since past. How could anyone design this mishigaas?

When i look at what i have - nearly 90 lbs of state paper and 3 very damaning tapes with state tesstimony: I never thought investigative journalism before, though it has been mentioned - by one who is very well received in his profession it seems. My psychologist of all people. Talk about muckracking? lol ;-)

Facebook rocks.

I am very happy to reconnect with the people of my youth. Many interactions are respectful, and responsive, and friendly. High School is fast approaching in a 20 year reunion. I've gone as far as was possible for me to go (west) when it became possible for me to do so. Grasss and Snow: made some strange decisions with that snow. Made for a rough decade.

In pulling together then these threads one has to read that a major story is somewhere within the mess of thoughts on this Blog. Somewhere in 90 lbs of paperwork of original and offical nature is a story, a nasty little one costing hundreds of millions: and, places the entire organization that is State of California into an unfavorable light. Lots of winks and nods and "it's your call" abuse your power sort of thing going on out here. "ChinaTown"(Nicholson) a great film.

Much is good and much is needing work. Lots of work to do - lots of jobs then should be around the corner. All natural tweaking going on D.C.? No Meth on this Presidents watch? These kinds of questions can be asked in fact because of connections between the Dems and the FAMILY in LA?

And, who testified against me at trial? Matthew Rhodes, a fellow alum from two schools? Enough similarity to the jackass named up top? Who in my class associated with the Ruckus Crew? Because, the Crew was represented (as was OHS) in assassinating the character of a school chum over the need to expose a cover-ups and lies that dangerously manipulate friends and family.

I decided to stop living that way. I prefered the "goodliving" that was recently departed description of living to me by a fellow child in the world of OHS. Thank you Captain, I consistently find value in your thinking. Janus - good, verygood.

In this closure today then ...

1) I do NOT enjoy this issue I am facing, though I dig the challenge.
2) I will always and forever love those two. They toughed me deep down with great positivity. Made me grow up some more. I love you for that too!.
3) I will continue to approach delicately this challenge, however, when I get you people onto the witness stand, you are going to have to answer questions about FACTS that are not in evidence in your favor.

Lastly, fighting a court case, criminal or ciivil, from a locked box is nearly impossible. My rights were so disgustingly violated in the LA COUNTY jails. Whatever. Now, Out here, with knowledge not had then ... like the quote R.Blum chose and I chose to paraphrase for senior quote. This is a second going around.

Happy Easter and Passover and maintain good for Lent as that is your thing.

I am folowing my heart and listening for G-d's wisdom to touch my heart. I have hope, faith, and I have love. Things are slowly going back to balance in this little ripple in the intertwined universe(s) of the principles involved here.

I will attempt to stay relevant and keep what I know to myself. Just be yourself and so will I.

1001 Books You Must Read Before You Die

2009-04-02T12:15:00.000-07:00

Storytelling.

THis volume discusses in a encyclopediac presentation 1001 titles of a mustread nature.

I purchased it when I was collected in February 2008. I've got a few texts to get through and have decided to be okay with myself if I happen to fall a bit shy. Though, I will continue to strive.

Many of the titles regarding philosophy, arts, business, i have stumbled accross and retain a portion from the years. The time has been fair to me, though I imagine that is slightly misleading: i've changed. It is clear, I continue to change.

And, i remain static too. How is this? To move forward and to hold attached to a moment of series of events in past memory only? The human body will shed all cells and completely regenerate over a lifetime some incredible number of times. The argument, "memory is nothing but a gimmick" (Aquarium Rescue Unit), has merit for me. SO THEN, why do some memries HURT so much, regardless of when the event(s) occurred?

Why, indeed ...

Many of the works referenced in such a volume as 1001 Books detail humanities struggle with its own identification. Through Virginia Woolfe and Oscar Wilde, From Nitchze to Joe Siegal (Superman) from cave dwelling artists to Plato to Cher we are a complicated organism.

Can the banner above ever change? When will I be able to releive myself of this story and move forward? Memory may be a gimmick, but pen and ink on State socuments, the age of people and relationship to events of nefarious circumstance, lies: I suppose when these are erased from the day-to-day of this struggling writer I'll be able to get back to reading the 1001 Books on the list.

Until ... simple ... "carry on".

In 20 years, since leaving highschool ...

2009-03-31T17:42:00.000-07:00

I have seen and done much. I have passed on opportunities to take advantage of people. Joking at others expense doesn't have the entertainment it once held. I must have significantly matured along The Way.

I have gone through an addictiion -leaving me in recovery - one that cost lives of those close by; it cost jail time and prison for others. In standing up, in the tradition of "working the steps", I made several requests for hearing and all were lost upon deaf and dumb ears.

By all but some.

I was prodded, and I was "baited" and I finally took a small measure of action. I intervened in abusive lifestyle behaviors that had put in me fear- directly. Out here there was some verious and simply tradgic times. Also some good and very fun. Some events were safer than others - as a concert is often "okay" when others are "great!". Point being human nautre is to seek out and identify that which is worser so to avoid it as completely as possible. To push it away, to "exile it", is a primal response to that which is abhorant.

California is in crisis in some ways that may never recover. Our New Age is a political age; projects for re-building are already newly packaged - not porkbellied - into the next 50 years.

All sorts of new-dealesque and neo-pragmatic programming will affect many millions. True. Many millions will also go underfed, under employed, remain unemployed and unemployable: many more will be phased out on their benefits.

It is a true mess. Now, we are combating the culturally significant identification young people have with presenting to older people personae of sexed up and free with age-taboo restrictions ignored.

Truth or Dare - remember that one? Think of the places that one will soon be going?

I cringe. Not because the suggestions will be inapporpriate and yet will entice some to engage in the worst of the MARQUIS d'SAAD. Read the story and see for yourself. The truth test will be for parents: daddy, have you ever? or mommy: is it true...? what will your answers bring to the mind of your children?

My mind was recently compelled to accept that a generation of children born in the 80's were sexually active at 11 and 12 and 13 and that technology is going to simply compel the dissemination of the energies that do take advantage of people. I seem to recall reading in a paper that significant numbers of young people - age 11-18 are not only experiementing with aexually active lifestyles - they are in ways more active than any preceeding generation before them. Will we have GENERATION SEX-ers to content with as a result of tech or a result of ignorant parenting and lifestyle development.

In the 20 years since leving my highschool I've realized that I was more aware of what was happening in the cliques around me than I previously believed. I also realize that I did exactly what I needed to do to survive my years thus far. I am a serious person these days. I dod not suffer ignoratnt behavior well - and i am humbled by the pressures of growing today in highschool, younger and certainly forward to their future.

I see that as long as I have FREEDOM of RIGHTS in this country i will support a person, 11, 12, 13 to express her or his rights. I can't seem to break away from the teaching of Jefferson and Dewey, of Vygotsky and Skinner, of Dr. Davis and all the other wonderful instructors in the Teacher Apprentice Program (TAP) I attended after college. (Go BOBCATS!) through JCU '94.

All people, each of us will develop a unique identification with the rights that we perceive we have a right to express at many points in life. I respect all. I do not agree with all and I will debate, even argue. I have lost my stack and screamed, ranted, cried, and thrown out people for whom I care deeply.

I have seen much and live well. I have loved hard and long and soft and gently. I have raged and catalogued against the machine and I have disrupted the status quo - again - for a moment. I have lived up to my cultural identity and have become who i am today. Baruch Hashem.

No regrets. Some misguided decisions brought worlds of experience and allowed me to develop a minor idea of how major ideas are being managed every single day in CALIFORNIA and in THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA.

I have developed abilities to navigate the civil systems that govern all of our lives. I see life as aggregate. When circumstances align the best practice models encourage development of: a new enterprise: 1)identify 2)presence 3)information 4)update 5)outreach.

In a nutshell: I have learned to build for-profit and non-profit business plans that work. I have brought all my skills in learning, teaching, developing, assessing, assimilating, and fianlly producing something that not a single friend nor foe has to my knowledge.

A court case against two state agents who put into motion a conspiracy to suppress liberties and rights to live and re-enter society without problem. These people made more commotion: more "false alarm" calls to the past victim, caused more duress on a community (broad daylight arresets in public library 2 years ago this Easter/Passover) than many other criminals. These employees of California are criminal in intent and action.

The story thus far has been about a rapist. Watch how an echo of sorts develops - or don't. If you don't return ... thanks for stopping bye, and do take care to keep learning. Tell your children, and adults, you love them for exactly who they are.

don't wait. tell them now.

good people

2009-03-26T09:23:00.000-07:00

R.I.P.

Nathan Shapell

Cendy Lara

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Have a blessed day.

Loads happening:

2009-03-25T06:23:00.000-07:00

Mike McCullar apparently has moved elsewhere. It's a start. So, where? Stay posted: I have a LEGAL RIGHT to find him to get the Sheriff's his address for delivery of a SUBPOENA.

Yesterday, I was DEPOSED in the linked court-case. Oh My, SOMEONE named Mike is really up on the State's radar now.

I thought I was hot, nope, you've got the potato now. Believe me .. well you know you've lived in CALI forever. Me well only 12 years. So, as I was saying ...

The State will find you and Tana and the kids Mike - welfare roles. Always will have a very special little interest in you. But .. Is that "legal". Not in my pointofview, just a little on the "grey" side of life in thinking through this thought. The state messed with me Mike, I'm sure you'll get used to it - well, no you won't, but who really cares right. Feels bad, makes you want to just crawl under the covers. But, MIKE< GET UP DUDE! IT"S MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT. Sound (seem) familiar? jackass.

Yo! This is me, Scott. Mike ... I realize you are a little more interested in what is happening now. This is good.

Sara, you also have moved along, and that too is good - not. And, I also have the LEGAL rights to pursue a legal course within the 1st amendment. Squeezed ... hon ... from every corner of SoCal and some of Bakers and Many other places. The light of the State and the Shadow of what we have created in building such an industry of state prison; I've got a handle, somewhat, on both systems. Sara, everything will be All Right. You are loved. You are RESPECTED.

Your story is evidence, OUR story is evidence, and yes ... to a degree now Mike made us and his daughter drag his guilt into the open. maybe there is hope for cleansing moments? If so, I am now GUIDING, the case is on - we are going to TRIAL and ptsd is the issue and Mike - you threatened me while i was FILING. The Sheriff's were called to make a report - that constituted CONTACT with cops and i have to tell PAROLE. So, That creates a POINT of ORIGIN with you. My Agent(s) all know about you now too. Any light taken off them and shined onto you .. well ... hmmm ... politics.

You are as involved as we had discussed. I wish that life would be "simple".

World Audience. Reader. the case will be updated on the KNOL site. That place needs some work anyway.

To my old chums, friends, classmates, and stakeholders in every community in which i've lived. You've all helped me over these 37 years. (38). Thank you.

Writer

2009-03-18T20:14:00.000-07:00

What is this person? who is a "writer"? what makes a businessperson pushing paperwork and a lawyer litigating a case; a novelist of suspense and one of romance; an historian? what makes each of these roles people hold - what turns them into "writers"? nothing? a common thread of something then?

I'll submit then we are all writers of some graphophonemic system of communication.

Then, it must be the SUBSTANCE of the writing that compels one to call Stephen King a WRITER.

Maybe, to differentiate between a writer and a WRITER is to look at yourself in the mirror.

Maybe ...

this is to say that we are all writers and then some of us will go the distance to WRITE a series of thoughts that will capture a mass group of persons and grip them. Compel them to pick up that writing and read more of it.

after a while, the WRITER will be able to push out poor writing and that won't matter much to the bigger picture.

Maybe one day she says that she is not interested in writing for the reader. Then, she will say it is all about ME.

What am I driving at? What is compelling me? What has taken this guy from Ohio, this not too average nor too above nor too below. This guy that sets himself apart when he seemingly wishes to and not much can budge him until he is ready, it appears.

what then is this all about? Civic duty, honor, reality, constitutional liberties afforded to EACH OF US! Rights that are en force at ALL times, no matter what or who has custody. Its about giving trust and affection to a friend who undermines the self with a "taken birthday present". Isn't it a right for a woman to state NOT NOW, I'm Feeling Sick and doesn't that MATTER?

I was taught conflicting messages too. Wow, then, is that what this is about? A mess, this is, because it involves the past. Uncovering the past in a sort of archaeological dig. The legal battle is going to do this, it will uncover things that some wish to leave buried. It cannot stay buried as it was concocted in lies, buried and shrouded in uncompromising and ethically, morally deranged. bereft comes to mind to describe those involved in this messiness.

Now, I have a confused reader?

Here are the broad strokes, all th posts are stream of consciousness and confusing to many. Those reading with a place in this drama, well, you get much huh? in an effort to stay cohesive these pieces are essential:

A civil rights case is in Ventura Superior Court, now.

I am Plaintiff.

I am In Pro Per

No ONE wants to find out what really is under all 90 lbs of paper I have gathered.

not even me, and I have to.

We are bound then, your reader and me Writer. Perhaps someday I will be a WRITER or be always a writer; today, though, I am a Writer.

catching up

2009-03-13T12:04:00.000-07:00

It's a primary focus to me, that you, the reader is comfortable. I wish the writing to follow some path that you can identify with readily. I hope that you will stay with this story as it develops.

Understanding this much is necessary to handling the next piece. The story thus far is simple: i got into trouble leading to a parole stretch. during this i was back and forth, jail and home. after the major two parts were completed these were the term and then a violation of 12months, i then was assigned the person called Thompson. She broke the laws of the state and the land.

People would be better off here as an ending. However, being always curious we continue on...

During the reign of Thompson, i found love and fell, become an expectant parent, then not.

Became an outspoke proponent of MMJ. Medical Cannabis

During the beginning of 2007 Thompson and i were locking horns over 120 days. During that time i went to some college classes. & weeks into her weirdness escalated. I was arrested at a public library. There was a strange hitch - i was doing nothing illegal. though, she claimed i was! in report form and that was enough to do something "officially". the question is: a reprisal?

Fact: the arrest came 8 days after the document went to State. Fact: I was wearing hemp t with the slogan "Potential ..." next to a shoot of C. sativa. People close to me witnessed that arrest. Horrible.

It goes on. Over the next eighteen months i would spend as many in as out on violation. The next: having a cell phone - that was a computer issue again. Again, once the Board has the case, you aren't leaving unless a very rare thing is going on.

I have learned that what things appear to be are not at all what they seem.

I have absolutely no issue with what is going on. what is going on?

You tell me? Come to read up on things here. But, be forewarned, it is not forthe faint of heart.

Considering destiny

2009-03-11T12:47:00.000-07:00

Does one make their own destiny or not?

If in a great scheme of a lifetime this question makes a difference in how one views them self; Then to a greater or lesser degree an answer is dependent upon each individual.

Let's accept these as premises from which to grow a deeper appreciation for what is going on here.

For instance: I have a crush on a friend, more an acquaintance.

We exchanged only a small snippet of conversation, yet have a deep eye contact when we do see each other. Unfortunately, that really isn't enough nor in the best context for me to 'attend ' the conversations she is a part of , so i end up drifting off. Though, i look back and she is watching me depart. So, I wonder ...

We can either do nothing about the connection, or, do something about it. Either way answers flow from a standpoint of chochma (Hebrew) or 'wisdom' as opposite 'folly'.

These are very ancient ideas in philosophy.

Essentially, each place, moment, second in life is formed with a choice to do, or not to do something.

We are always making choices.

The rational behind the reasons for choice depend upon the ability to be intelligent or not.

If one is unsure, disagrees, in any way harbors a doubt then one is obligated by 'wisdom' to wait or not to wait. Conversely, if one 'feels' and 'understands' what one 'is doing' then they are obligated to choose to "do" and 'enjoy'.

Letting life develop on its own, without the imposition of the will upon it, is really the point here. Is that at all possible? Free will and Freedom and Choice - some believe in Karma and Dharma; others Talmud or Quoran. The list continues. We feel "small" in the universe then and attempt to explain our life through the 'filter' of whatever Philosophy or Religion or Faith, etc. Truthfully, do we ever reach a space of balanced harmony, eternal beingness, or zen/nirvana/heaven? Does the despicable in life ... do they reach the opposite(s) states of being? Is there a real difference, or simply, "context".

Which thoughts intrude from the past upon the present thus shading and coloring our future. The spice of each life then is what we often perhaps refer to as "destiny" and the making then is peppering the life with the spice of choice.

These are justifications for action, in which inaction is also action; bland spice, though spice nevertheless.

SO, i let my developing relationship(s) go where it/they may. I'm not sure if destiny is shaped or not. A theme in my life these days. Sitting ... waiting ... meditating.

I'm giving heads up ... this does need to happen.

2009-03-10T13:04:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry to have brought this into your house and home. Do STOP READING and DO NOT READ FURTHER. This is factual info. Names are not changed. There is no guilty, at this time.

The administrators of the scholl which placed sarar into this home in '96 likely didn't know as much as sara. of course none would nknow what Mike does.

At the time (1996, later in Fall), non-disclosed source of info/intel describes a rather goodly supply of heroin going through said household: brought in traffic by ??? The mother of two young male children had the habit and the owner of the home, in fear? depression? embarrassment? hostage? evidently did not leave her room. certainly giving the young McCullar, Mike a chance to run the "floor" as we say upstate was wrong. Bred in the scum backwash of the Pacific as it blows through the Central Coast mike mccullar turns outto be like third generation scumbag.. This lovely Valley happens to fall under Ventura county Seat. So, No Mayor, except in the City of Ojai, which has a lower number by nearly 15.

McCullar, I was literally a stones throw from you (a minute's drive) while you raped my friend. I learned of this and blew a circuit 10 years after. image mike. Yeah, did that.

You are like nothing i have seen before. your eyes are purest unbalanced.

And TODAY: 2009! Just before the satate violated me again i learn of this: TRO by Young mother of 18 mo old boy show your strong-arming her (6'1 20-240 the boots weigh ten at least v. 5'2" 120?) for money. Like $250. You claimed that she "owed you and Tana, your third mother of your children. for childcare of your boy. At 11 PM in a Von's parking lot, within 48 hrs of using a van in front of your daughter , with three of your other children, to threaten me with escalating violence. Mike you see attempted to run sara and the new born 6 month old over with her car. A Camarro?

This is fact and archived record.

you are so petty. Michael Mccullar aka "Mike" you are soon to be ...what?

so today he does the welfare thang. Tana is doing number 4? and JENNA (by tana ex) is Ksenia aged and this means close to "sara' age? and this translates to a NEED TO WATCH MIKE McCULLAR real good for a few years at least? does anyone really believe Mike has stopped watching young women, girls who are randy or even "bad" definitely sexually active. Mike is dangerous and escalates to violence quickly. he and his wife tana are running illegally a daycare service" according o court docs.

and since mike, you opened your big mouth to me at a very sensitive time in my life, you'll be soon attending thecircus too. i think many will anticipate you and i having the little chat. don't you?

I am jealous Mike. You got game or you got some good 'H'? I dunno, i'm just speculating there, would you still keep children around it?

Girls, young women, whomever. Pay attention ... what is this? a predator.

I profiled your ex because of many factors. i am not a professional profiler - it sorta just happens, from what they say.

Someone gave me ODD THOMAS to read, Dean Koontz. It was slow to good simmer.

I claim none of those abilities, nor would i want them ... i don't think ... you?

Nor do i claim Unashamed Love. What is this fraze"?(phrase).

Is this like training for "touch me here hunny. that's good" sorta "talk" you'll have at the Calvary Chapel on Mahoney in Oak View where the State pays to locate 16 chomos and has for a while, thereby splitting the workforce in City of Ojai- 50% Police 50% Sheriff's deputies; flexibility?.

Though there are good sized porus places to slip around, getting out of the valley is a little harder... so it's sorta like a cage. a mummy and daddy threw her to the wolves.

And what do I know here? Nothing, of that i am certain. These lives where doing their thing. Okay, fine .. the deed is done and she is turning out to be very well mannered, intelligent, thoughtful and caring girl. Also, there is a developing testiness? what does that precursor mom,grandmom?

look, my business is nearly done. mike had to rape you to get a pregnancy. we chose on many occasions to be open, honest, caring to get ours. i wanted to be there. i always wished to be there. part of the evidenece shows parole knew about this medical information and suppressed it. she was unable to get onto my MediCal without me.

And, life suddenly slipped away. God, I am insane to want to be a part of this, and i do. Something with sara compels me to want to cry this injustice, set a record straight and then have a firmer basis for relationship building.

i beg someone to let her understand these entries are changing. troubling as they maybe they must be confronted and the time really is now. Well, 4-27-09 actually. completely know and embrace ... court is coming. PTSD, that the State through parole and by extension who and how the chomos get placed by parole( in part) causes me to suffer greater PTSD and perhaps necessitate a move.

Weekend delights ended.

2009-03-09T08:57:00.001-07:00

There are certain ideas that surface. Recurrences maybe. They nevertheless, cause me to stop - to consider. To wit: I have learned and taught a good deal of my adult career. Certainly, as a child and adolescent i looked the part, maturing along established and routine guidelines of human development. Then, i really took off. Once i got it into my system, i enjoyed it, there were times i would simply loose (sorry lose) myself for days on end, too tired to even try again.

still do;-)

When the labors and pains did not pan out, Desperateness, that was a word. pissed off with doctors and and lawyers and "professionals". so i would do my deed for free and then i would mostly pray and hope for the best.

so, one day, the so-so weirdo and only one around takes from behind, in the darkness of the day or night, and rapes that which he claims as a missed "birthday present"

do you people know that oak view,ca is populated with 17 known rapists and sex offenders - chmos.

did you look to see what you sending your daughter into?

hmmm... hindsight = 20/20?
your grand-daughter was wanting OUT of that house. Did you know that? Have we demonstrated a potentiality for learning.

Ooops, what did grand-daddy do with all those little beer sips?

Another page to be buried.

We do always "git" what we wish for - i meditate on that now.

There are certain ideas that surface. Recurrancesss maybe. They nevertheles, casuee me to stoppp - to consider.

2009-03-09T08:57:00.000-07:00

Calvary Chapel on Mahoney in Oak View. Mike stomps around withthe lord as he considers raping girls not more than a quarter mile from the LORDs HOUSE

2009-03-07T20:03:00.000-08:00

i got you - maybe the 14th, maybe not.

punk.

Re-Direct

2009-03-06T14:07:00.000-08:00

The above named is "on blast". He is not someone i would have focused on, if not for his aggressions (unwarranted) towards me.

Once the civil case became reality i am intertwined within the two. so, the references need to remain. The names need not be protected, why?

The point is about standing tall for who YOU are, not because of where one comes from, or how.

Be aggressive, or nice. Be playful, or mean.
It's your choice.

I chose simple.

simplesmj.com.

complicated only got me into maintenance. not high, just amazing.

What kind of contributions do I/You/We want to make? ...

2009-02-28T11:18:00.000-08:00

In terms of giving back to community. When involving a PERSONAL MISSION STATEMENT: TO NOT be holding onto the secrets that can hurt friends and family (for example) one has to consider risks, values, etc.

The older I get the more it is apparent to me that I care. I care about me, about you, and about where We are going into the future.

I took on a significantly changing set of circumstances in my life. These caused me to break a confidence with Rick Frohlich (see him on Facebook) and others involved in things that even I an "in the middle" friend was not fully aware of.

Rick has beautiful family and peoples around him. He is regarded as intelligent and fair - he is. We, he and I and others got into to some stuff and in the end I took the hit. I took the onus upon my shoulders today that which I would not wish to hold in ten years, 15, whenever. The issues were compelling enough to lead me to intervene in places that were VERY sensitive to Rick and his people.

I have remorse only for bringing Lisa, his sister-in-law, into it.

I regret only not being clear in mind and spirit. I resent liars and i resent people who took the stand against me who had NO BUSINESS.

When you become friends with Rick, ask him about Mitch Bass and Scott Bloom. And, now you can add me to his "closest" friends in the world? list?

Secrets - we ALL know hurt. Do you want to be holding onto any secrets in your lives that can hurt your poeple if not disclosed?

When your secrets need a Glock 9mm to "feel" safer, then your secrets are getting you into the BigHouse, sooner than later. I know, I've been there.

Beginning ... to end. Ending ... to begin?

2009-02-25T15:52:00.000-08:00

In many ways these ideas matter. In some degree they matter less than others, and so we generally shorten to say "It doesn't matter..." which is confusing and ambiguous and pretentious too.

These are traits i have come to love about you, yes.

So. Aryeh received a postcard to schedule his vaccinations, it'll get to you i'm sure.

i feel terrible for falling to pieces. i simply fell apart ... no excuse.

it will not, hopefully, happen again, as more information is learned. i advocate self-knowledge. it's called META COGNITION, or things dealing with Meta Knowledge.

I'd like to say this was the last message about a broken heart. i cannot.

there will be soon many depositions, and many hearings, and soon we will be forced to see each other. this time, no more prison, no more lies.

i love with all my heart you both. i have been shaken trues to see a reality of the world i was well sheltered from - for reasons not even associated to these which are today.

i wish i had the guts to disrespect you and call, i don't.

goodnight

A little over two years ago ...

2009-02-14T14:55:00.001-08:00

I met a wonderful woman - Sara.
Now, two years hence, lots of (no really loads of) knowledge has left me shattered. It has left her nearly shattered too. She is much stronger than I; therefore, i gather she has weathered it better than I did.

Much better.

I am also not comparing, per se. I am integrating what i envisioned a long life with Sara, no judgements about hwat we'd done or where we'd been; that know we had found each other everything would be allright.

Well, things are allright, just not ALLRIGHT!

Things in life in Ojai is so simple and so unchartered today.

I feel berift. I am also needing to get to getting along without a reconciliation.

Here's to Sara, to getting caught in a web of deceit woven by Michael McCullar.

So, on an appropriate day, for things bloody have always ocurred on this day, haven't they?

On this day then, Micahel McCullar, rapist, child molester, two time sire of children by rape and child molestation: you are called again what you are. You live with your third victim; your current wife, and she is pregnant again? You are on the welfare system and claim how many children reside with you?

World, know this... I don't have any real issue with being 20 and screwing a 16 year old - except it is ILLEGAL. I also, really could care less about a 25 year olde man taking a 15 year old girl when she claims "it doesn't matter". Fine, your busines - BUT IT IS ILLEGAL.

When yoiu either supply heoin to a mother you live with who has two children - that is your business. IT IS ILLEGAL.

Michael McCullar of 1327 Cruzero, Mira Monte 93022. You and Tanna and the fam really should think about moving to a place that feels you are allright. WE, Sara, MySelf, your daughter by Sara, Ksenia. We really are not at all happy with your ignorance, the ILLEGAL way your continue to live - harming others. Juliana and EJ, we all really think you are not a good person.

Did you begin that way? Or, did your hair get pulled by the kindergarten teacher at Meiners Oaks too? It so, that is not a reason to break the LAWs that protect a CHILD's RIGHTS to GROW and become a HAPPY and FUNCTIONING adult in this world.

So, have I made a bloddy mess of your virtual fce here you JERK? If you have anything to say to me, SCOTT MITCHELL JAFFE, come find me. You know what I look like and where I am most of the time.

McCullar, Michael: Happy Valentines Day 2009.

There will be a lovely respose as I migrate to a spot that is less about written vomitting; here, this place is for you. You wished to know my name ... remember? Simplesmj, and you can read me everyday. You and the world Michael. ALWAYS and Forever.

Pleasure to make you aqauintance, jackass.

LOVE

2009-02-13T16:08:00.000-08:00

I re-read 1 Corinthians 13 today.

Did other reading and writings too.

Reworked the Maslow Pyramid into a MindMap.

Missed my Sara-family, missed you alot.

Realized that the Attorney General expects me for the biginning of depositions on Wednesday.

Ooops,. gotta get to LosAngeles.

Anyone going that way cares to break the law a little bit?

Find my number, I'll see if i want to pick up.

Oh yeah, since the case is ongoing, has always been on-going, find the real-deal TRUTHs over at the link to the right. Jaffe v Thompson et al. (2008) -- it is alive and well. I am alive ... well ... not according to Federal Laws, fully functional. If I appear to astound you, it's because that reall what I'm all about.

LOVE to Astound you.

Hasppy Valentines Day.

The promise of the pony or horse in the 8th stands true, always and forever "kiddo".
no matter what. promise.

Additions

2009-02-09T17:01:00.000-08:00

The DESCRIPTION above may help a bit, if one is willing to read it. If not, that's okay too.

For me, I have to have a place, a space to go to and a place to get quiet in. You reader, hey you . you know what i mean? yeah, sure you do.

That quiet place to get to when the space around is limited. The space in our hearts - thats the place i mean. I've been able to get there, once. A friend helped me to understand FAMILY.

Our creek walks, with the puppy. Those were real for us. The element is there. Safe in our memories: remember ... the cool blue sky and not many clouds. little tadpole like things to go and hover over. fish to swim with. Space like that ... with the fresh and cold pockets of warm pool water all for us. feels like its only ours. to me.

All for us. I liked that feeling. I felt a feeling that i had missed in my fmaily at her age. i felt friendship and trust and love.

so today, i am insured. i have begun the process -- always beginning - so much better than a finishing - those come naturally enough. beginning to rebuild - again. The Foundation is laid, watch for a migration soon. To places far away and yearning for the joyful sounds of loving souls - happy togehter, happier for taking the chance to BE HAPPY together.

the chosmos is a very unusual place for us human beings to imagine. it is just that big. when the universe become that big all at once it can become scary. i make the big space MySpace and you see, it's is awesome. Thank you reader.

President Obama, thank you for maintaining this pace. So far, so good, on-line at the library.

WritingBoard

2009-02-07T13:45:00.000-08:00

The poem brings to mind troubles and travails to twist the rain out of any day. That may be what we all love and ... disavow with the same breadth - ah,timepo!

ah tiempo!.

Perhaps these are the moments in a relationship that has all the right stuff. Part of that to me is humility: of a rainy day 'loveit' or 'leaveit' sort.

I am not able to stay too long today. It's awesome to see outside.

i do love to be keeping it real with you. to leave with the thought: we get out of this world that which we put into it. Maybe i got-a-pain too because i was one for many years. maybe there's nothing to that interpretation either - bs. maybe ... the loves of my life come round to take me to dinner, welcome home sorta. and, maybe they won't.

Scenario

2009-02-06T10:18:00.000-08:00

SimpleSMJ.blogpsot.com and all these writings are FACT and factual descriptions of life drama in, and around, the decisions of REAL people and REAL events.

I have OFFICIAL documents, audiotapes, love letters and other items to display.
This is a story about deception. It is about a person who REPRESENTED himself at a "stalking" trial in Superior Court in California. He was accused of this crappy crime. His assets - not liquid for defense. His support group - pissed off, and not helpful[until getting the full experience]. great folks, you know.

My lover and companion is ticked off. Her effeminate ex-hubby is chubby.

An emissary, Jordyn, perhaps can explain; where the rubber meets the road.

And so it goes, my life is that of the character in the main. I am me. The writing is mine, and no one but MySelf claims that which is freely given.

I don't have to beg, cajole, nor take what is not mine.

When decisions are made, at least we will have the ability to claim love. Without love, there is nothing.

This is a story of a man who 'cares for each and every lover.' I take care to be careful of others needs. I am a caring man.

I also so clearly see people for who and what they are in the moment. Not based solely upon past. I don't judge and presume to assume. I know what i know and i see what i see. i call it the way i see it.

Give up your rights, if that is asked for. Roll up, and roll on. You will never be a friend of mine, and to be that close to me all the time michael, well, Micky D's pays more than i do.

therefore, "gentle reader", take care cuz i care.

At The Ventura County Law Library ... working on my case.

Thank you to all who make possible so very expansive renditions of reality.

Too Say a little upset ...

2009-02-05T18:21:00.000-08:00

doesn't close the gap at all.

I am livid.
With mySelf and the way i responded to stress in my life.

I am livid with the intolerance, damn straight anti-semitism in the DAPO and CDCR.

I am Extraordinarily tolerant of myself and the need to see and experience a moment of scavenger hunting for what we misplaced. or in our own ways placed away for a better day?

I am sorry to those that I have hurt and myself included. i was viewed by some in rather poor light. I reacted instead of taking time to consider. Yet, never did i loose the most important element - my grip on myself; things yes - sorry.

So, now, this leaves my able to state factually.

I was again arrested on September 4, 2008. this time at 0730 hrs. no one is quite able to realize the why, how, or see any reason at all for the behaviors of Frank Milazzo and the Sheriff's in Ventura County.

ADA rights, State and Federal CONSTITIONAL rights. Section 504 of the Rehabilitation Code (1973), In re OLSON (1974), and a neat list of others to follow.

For starters these are Laws and when they are mucked up we owe it to ourselves and the FUTURE young beauracrats to pay close attention and help them to learn and grow in safety.

In hope.
In faith.
In Love.

without love we haven't anything?

I miss my girls and my animal friends. I miss my plant friends and I miss you all so much I could simply scream. But, what that would do is pointless. It "matters", everything matters, to greater or lesser degree.

Over the next several weeks I am going to have to fill out this story more, we know that. All of us know that.

i have 68 days left, i have Milazzo expressing that more reasonable condition E exists in light of the abovementioned statutes, etc, etc, and POR. Therefore, be in well acknowledged that my intent in "staying under the radar" is do fly straight and right. Tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth.

I will not embelish, though i may extrapolate details that are known to really one or two, but are clear enough to see through the haze, for everyone.

I want you to know, that i love you all - like the jurist in '03 and like the detective from the same case (more to link up later). Love of this nature is the minimalist degree, and it matters.

Love for some new acquaintences from ASP, that remains poetic and brook-like. Non?

And love for the Law, for reading, the books and the support folks. Yes, of course. More depth to that then the "dick" or "dix" in LA.

We are a messy thing - we humans- we homo sapiens. Drama, dram, drama - TV makes good drama because of the bed. A great bed and TV is wonderful.

I am happy to be at home. This time the home my family owns.

I have yes, expanded my networks and of course have the ability to re-connect.

Given.

If you aren't happy with the results then please consider the next time you wish to piss off a Jew. Many do ALWAYS tend to alert the party that the dance is going ON for; because, the Bible says to,it is the proper form. Good form means much, Non?

Okay, i wish to pull this back to center for you. Really these are the important pieces to take away from this new day's entry:

I love Sara and Kisenia, Aryeh and Chirpy.
I miss you and wish I could be forgiven.

I have established a network and will soon connect and see what is what. I am not going to be anything that i am not already. i am attempting to help some serious people take "new" things seriously and increase their self-worth, esteem and of course, their wealth. My position is legitimate, at all times.

Some are not compatible with that model. That is on them.

If Michael McCullar (rapist, child molester PC Section 1036.5 and PC Section 296? I'll double check this one) wishes to talk with me, show some self-respect and find me at the places i go to in town. if i was a betting man, a nickle is too much to cover this worthless bet. i'll give the best show you gave, give. what's up? hope this wasn't something that you thought would go away ... you and Milazzo and Thompson, you three are in this one all togther now. So, Michael ... welcome to the big times. Embry and DeLosSantos, i'm sure they'd love to get you on their desks.

As new readers are joining,

I will be saving this section, simplesmj for the dramatis personae and for the rough sketches of the ("my"?) book. i think interviews and such shall be in order.

read if you wish, though, i find it to be compelling too. mostly, we are in good company.

oh, yes, adoption and marriage to Ksenia and Sara, still stands. until someone else heals me, or takes my love away from you. the first is plausible, in time. the second, never.

Good night, G-d Bless and know that little warrior princesses can have amazing dreams ... i hope that is you, my friends.

in the light of the new day

2008-09-04T06:24:00.000-07:00

i am alone mostly - housemate and his friends, potential girlfriend without much of sara's energy about the place.

i was home for a time, a place not great for needs (too small, too noisy) with the potential though of great happiness and the ability within a 8 months of Jan 28, 2007 perhaps to move to more suitable surroundings. a request to hang tight for 6 months, and the PLEA to be honest with me. i couldn't work without the honesty.

sara disbelieved in me. I am not a violent man, but to make the sort of claims made herein, without the proper buttresses to support may have hurt many others.

if i made the "wrong" call what would have been on my hands. further, world, i had to REALIZE all this out while sleeping with sara. She was and may still be unable to give voice to that day and what occurred on Oct 26, 1997, sara was not yet 16. heroin? in the house - for certain.

Perhaps, she doesn't fully really "know" that is what eroded more that anything disclosed. her lack of listening to me: our children are the MOST important part of our FUTURE and must be protected at all costs. learning this is liekly too much for her daughter.

living with me may be too much for the both of them - heck, for any woman now.

living with me is not easy and i need to be with a woman who is stong and also clear in my and heart. not carrying with her in mind and heart such hurt and torture.

i need to be loved for who i am, and for what i am, and that is not a bad man. that is not a criminal, that is not a stalker.

i was found guilty not of stalking, but of being a poor choice to self rep in light of the DA eating her big bone. LA DA Lotsfield - a real jerk. James Brandlin, jerk too.

World, power comes from within to face the wrath of the Creator.

Every morning i wake to first thank that energy for replacing my soul into my body, and then, i wash my hands of the work done in the dreaming world of sleep.

we are soft creatures on the surface of a hard planet floating in something called "space". we cannot get off this rock and live long. we better learn to live honestly and put or minds and attentions to re-engineering some of the problems we have globally.

stop warring about stuff happening so long ago.

one side knows the truth, the other beleives it knows the lies. so, they fight over the unknow.

mccullar called me out to fight over the unknown.

i do not fight from violence. i will end violence with peace.

this is how we do it. we write and we talk and when pushed we unleash all we have and then some to bring to an end the most nefarious lies of all.

lies in the FACE of ALL COMMUNITY.

McCullars of Cruzero. You are dangerous people. bad sitters of children and should have no work to support your lies.

you come to me and you sit and your prove to me that this is inaccurate writing and that what is coming to you in court should be stifled.

i have compassion to stifle parts of this saga for a wife's retirement for she had nothing to do with michael webb allowing this to happen under his watch.

i have a soft heart and i am redeveloping my body into the hardest it can become.

when it is hard, mccullar, if you wish, i will put on boxing gloves and meet you for three rounds.

one each for the three women you are known of raping. if you do not re-challenge me then it is clear. you've lost: sara, your duaghter, friends, work, and essentially life. if you come out of this not homeless i am happy because the world is a hard place as you know.

though, God may require in this lifetime that you learn hard living again.

the softness taken off the backs of babies - nefarious to the core. not evil, simply a lazy thinker. maybe that is the worst your daughter has to contend with: she lets the thinking go lazy at times. isn't encouraged by mom to be too analytical.

i can live with the worst of what humans are capable of - murder. have slept three feet from murderers and men who in self-defense (that the courts did not accept) have taken the life of another human.

i do not wake with this in me.

i wake saddened to be awaking alone.

sara was in my mind the one and only woman for me; had we met in 96, she 15/16 and me a very young 25 we would have connected.

we would have been able to have children without the use of nafarious means and/or drugs (illicit or otherwise). we had/have the capacity to give life with love and to bringthat life into the world with faith and hope backing that love.

one of us believes the risk is too great and that is just not so.

another of many excuses to not face life and reality fully?

i dunno.

i know that until we are able to face each other with honesty we will not face each other.

i will be honest, as i always have. Sara, you threw rocks and boulder at me in the most symbolic way. i threw and kicked real objects, not literal rocks and boulders of major discovery.

living with this cloud over you for so long, all you claim to love while harboring the secrets - that is living with an alcoholic and morrally loose mother again.

that is not the teaching i wish you to leave me with - how to "screw" and "make the sounds" is not what you learned from me.

if this is too in your face and too much real honesty - you will not read.

though, keeping it real for a change sara. this is global. and someone you know is reading the content. and, someones in the governments of the USA and CA are too.

i wished to have you and our baby both alive. and, i have/had the means to make that the most likely scenario - on probation/parole or off.

you didn't beleive in me and you wrote that you did. if you and i had been honest in the past when it seemed to not matter. we may never had met.

i for one feel blessed that we did.

right or wrong, methods are seen as that which are fine if they do not hurt the self or another.

truth hurts? true that.

will it kill you? not today.

goodbye mr mucullar - the reign of terror is over as it is for #1693. you both wished to be "enforcers" as you claimed to me.

have fun with your future. toy with your own lives in the REAL for a change. leave all the others, the weaker ones, leave them alone you bullies.

Community Wellness Engineering

2008-09-02T21:06:00.000-07:00

The SIMPLESMJ.BLOGSPOT.COM site has absorbed the information in digest format from that referenced above.

In an email dated today and sent to one JT JAFFE and one S GOLIAN i disclosed that i would place my coffee order and then a clock would begin to tick.

TOnight i met again and confirmed with independent third parties that McCullar of Mira Monte, is in fact a most bad guy.

Two weeks or less, after aggressive behaviors on me, his aggression surged again he and did stalk one JULIANA and EJ? Former "clients" who they (McCullars- present) scammed and then threatened. Yes, enough for the court to intervene.

I misspelled McCullar with McClure and also miswrote the address: 1327 Cruzero. Same one who called me a "piece of shit".punk?

Do I believe in ghosts? no, not per se. i believe that our energy can hang around after our bodies disintegrate.

it's complicated.

just cleaning up.

Horoscope: Aug. 2

2008-09-01T20:09:00.000-07:00

Horoscopes
By Holiday Mathis
August 2, 2008

Cancer (June 22-July 22): Everyone you talk to, even those who simply pass by you, are affected by you. You're taking responsibility for your energy. Being up or down isn't a mood, it's a choice.

Leo (July 23-Aug. 22): Your fluid communication style allows others to understand you with few words and even less effort. You trust that they know what you mean, and don't complicate anything.

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Tg ... check this out. Two minutes to search, narrowed the day in mind to here. Only entry with "energy" and i recall you clearly reading that word.

My horoscope resonates as what i read that day. That would have been a day i was in the shoppe. Ye Ole Coffee Shoppe :-)

No One but you helped me babe, this was all guided energy beginning with serious "imaging" of research yesterday in the arbor. "OnMic" if you are believing all this world.

Andrea

2008-09-01T15:13:00.000-07:00

Is my sister in law. she mothers my nephew. likely she does not know this site exists until i inform her.

why?

because my family is upset. father reports "intimidation" i respond the "truth" is the only thing that intimidates me. otherwise i denounce all as lies and tell the liar to leave well enough alone. i certainly do not leave my vmail full and unable to take msgs and i certainly would NOT pick up for my "son" after what i have been putting out there.

he does, and they are. so, my son(s) and daughters will be on strictest supervision also - now why does my brother require this type of relationship with his parents?

believe me world, if there was ANY OTHER way to protect my friends than to out my sordid pasts to y'all i would.

the LA connectivity is not that which i care to expose. the DC connectivity hurts only me to expose. i am BURNT as they say in the work i do.

not BURNT OUT as reflects one not able to work, rather I am in serious need of substantial supports as i completely remove myself from the faulty connectivity.

once i visit my family and sit with them for a long last time in that state i am walking as i likely could have done, though what would be today if i had, many years ago?

so, judge me and lets be done with this already. you have realities to speak about and you need to be clear upfront ... because you are "family" you get a little more time to deal with the realities than say those i can't stand to give time to.

i ask to be seen as i am without the frills, and the misinformation, and the straight up lies. i am scott. i like several aliases. and, i am nearly finished being checked upon.

i see you in Ojai, in Ventura, in SB. It no longer matters which "camp" the "watchers are in". you have to be completely ignorant if you believe that Dept of Homeland and FBI dbases did not RING alerts with Obama, CLINTON, Shapell and Guerin and even ROSENBLUM in the same sentences as "terrorist". Certainly the first three and terrorism (domestic) as illustrated in the worst of how we raise our selves, turned on a whole new level of scrutiny.

Cycles of Family Dynamics are the process points here, and as you and yours, spiral through timespace now trust in this ... if you live honestly then you are honest. if you are seeing your self as honest, then please figure out how to live within the corruption without the mishmash confusion: so that the most of us and the least of us both say we are seeing an honest rep..

this is for my family, though, my family is thinned by one due to the State. What would you do with a lock, stock, and two smoking conspirators on paper breaking the United States of America's Constitution?

Name those closest to you and hope they get wise real fast? me too. me too.

so, Tg, how was the extra week at home? get lots of tan time in thinking this one through? i see the high chair moved and do hear a good degree

updated

2008-08-31T10:54:00.000-07:00

it only gets more twisted.

where to go today?

why, of course to 'private land' to soothe my soul and spirit. i do wish you to know all: i do invite myself to concerts to get to know great persons, art shows, dinners, etc. i also do not ever regret that which makes me. love is my being. it is not strange. the life experiences are: not the people. for to look at people as the total sum of their experience negates that which is the bigger parts inside. look to the ACTIONS of today, that tells us the being before us more than the realities of the past.

grain of salt? why do we have this expression? human nature and condition. so choose to live rather than be lived.

rewrites and typos

2008-08-30T14:27:00.000-07:00

please, readers. the blogsphere is NOT a final product. it is a temporary and protected area within cyberspace to place information.

the entry below is long in the middle. it has typo errors galore around there.

the time limits at the library cause me to not re-read before sending for publishing.

thank you for bearing this burden.

three items today:

First: "K" is 9 years old. how can this client pay my fees? milk money?

Second: she did not "negotiate" as an adult would for my very unique skillsets. she made statements of concern and i acted - right or wrong.

Third: yes, i love sara with all my heart and with everything that i am. sara though is roughly 13 in her years and that is where we are having a tough time. at that age, when "caught" what do you tend towards. truth and run away or lie and deal with the pain.

sara did not hire me, we feel deeply for each other and fell in to a depth of love that was/is awesome. i said shitty things once i had decided to take on K's case and that was not something that i ever planned to tell you this much of. trade secrets folks, if you know everything i do what's the point in supporting my coffee habits?

anyway ... i have loads of newness in my semi-retirement - i have never worked a "case" like this one and the file is so very strange and disrupted much in my life too...

k did not cause anything bad to happen. what she did was tell a friend (me) and housemate (mom) in a generalized way people talk around the couches at night before bed, that she "wished to be old enough to not to ever have to go back to her dad's house".

so, you see, i may have been "high" and paranoid - not, so i confirmed and triple confirmed and then shit a biscuit because the vagueness of the Wasco Prison "inside" stories were about this girl and her mother.

now, when you build with blocks, as i have for a million lifetimes, and you end up living within a construction of flimsy buildings and you have built your own ways of survival not too dissimilar. present reeks of past, i nother words. what then?

you question your housemates mother and STAY real aware of the PRESENT if you are trained in this as I am, you design a sequence of events to determine who and how to bring in the alert when the courts backfire. then you simply look to find the best ways to make that reality a comfortable one. this is the existence i moved into in Ojai when i was gathered up in the arms of the woman i will always love and will not harrangue.

decisions are needing to be made. today about moving away - and who and when and why are those questions best suited to people who are AWARE. Not the Frances for instance. Becaue if they are/were and didn't use their connectivity then shame for ever casting a stare of doubt my way.

Meiners Oaks and the Ojai Unified schools, Ventura County as an operating entity, connections up and down the coast to DC and then TelAviv and Bonn to ... CLINTON and MEXICO and a 15 year old dropped into the Ojai Valley and to me. And yes, this sis all consistent with truth on paper and reality in the years described below.

Oh, Ice T or Ice Cube was at a family wedding - my brother the liar. So, if the shoe fits we were them right? Change the script then Kirk, prove me the liar and the cheat. Prove me people the one deserving the blogging ... show me where i am misguided in this world anymore.

A quiet life of learning without the vows of a chaste life. Anything totally wrong with that? I can't see anything wrong there either.

See, when you get away from the past. SIMPLY say "yup - i did that and that and that and talked with moms and dads about this or that, because of some strange sense of whatever. Well, folks, you have a real question here. are you raising your children as adults or as their siblings? and so what if the medical info supports a likely truth of no children forever - what is the reposnsibility to the FUTURE. I DREAMT these things with sara and that is why we are apart. not the words and the hostility. the things that have not been stated and that are still dreamed. that is where we are and why, others reading, are not able to see why we aren't back together. there is more to this life then meets the eye and to transform, sara, you will have to be more honest with the loved ones. yes, that is the truth - you lack a consistent honesty and it is cinfusing.

client statement delivered: K. be well, now you mom and dad will communicate better and oma and poppa won't be so "hmmm. and hhhhuuhhhh." what NON ANSWERS. I get you kiddo. i really do.

have a great year.

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Now this is to the future and the family.

How much are you willing to answer? When those who will pay for celebrity connectivity start to see that SeaBiotics and William Shatner are like REAL IMPORTANT TO hearing K that night. How the products are out of this world for me and i won't be able to use them again because the sharks the liver oil came from have seen things below in the oceans and that is REAL SCARY to me. Not because i ate the products, because of the latent energy within the product my SYSTEM picks up on. like sara's dreams - which by the way went off the scales while using the TransAkyl product.

The celebrity count is growing in this "story".

I will find the "combination". Why, because no one is coming to help. like sara's existence.

it matters and now we are righting the ships we didn't allow to simply pass in the night. I love you too and never want to be in that bad space again.

TO ever get back to me to simply talk... you need to come clean with all the intel you have and trust that now, if the FEDERAL GOVERNMENT can't grant the safety that i have secured UPFRONT, then you should go global. Take K and really piss off McCullar. He is going to get pressure to leave. He is under serious surveillence. I just have to ask again, like "Stewie" on "Family Guy":

Aren't you glad you asked my name?

Life is full of shitty retributions.

Machiavelli and THE PRINCE

2008-08-29T15:23:00.000-07:00

A type of brief essay on political speeches and politcal positioning. why and how:

you want to understand me: take a bit of jeremey betham, add john stuart mill over emmanuel kant, smatter me with two semseters of Zuckers Ancient Western Philo which i only acquired a c- over a d-: not easy stuff for this frosh that year. though Zucker will always echo and did say boil it all down to one sentence, then expand down from that to your current expression.

that's how to pass a test. and that's how to position a person for a political speech giving opp. just like attempting to order a pizza online for delivery to a location at a later time. same principles. so why then do most of us not pre=plan our futures?

get the concept down to a sentence. remember about five details to add and you've got an essay.

so:

1) MACHIAVELLI IS THE MOST LIKELY TO BE RUNNING HOT TODAY INSIDE ME.

2)This means that i am wanting to connect with a media outlet willing to pay for why i am connected to CLINTON ADMINISTRATION, through JohnFrank Rosenblum in Athens, OH during the years 1990-1997, from 1997-2002 in LA with Matthew Rhodes of Persistent Prictures. NOT AN OUTLET I WILL EVER WORK WIT HAGAIN - horrible leadership. And, careful folks, they have guns around. why? i dunno, but i never met a gun that went off all by itself. They do not kill, the poeple behind them do. McCullar is a tool and those behind him are not at all happy now. Because Mira Monte just got a little hotter today. And now all these men are wrapped up together - which is how they would have been in 1996 if i had known what you were up to McCullar. You would have met my friends and WE would have taken the show, not you. You are an idiot, not in birth and genes, but in life experience. As an American Citizen in the USA i have a real hard time placing any of the three of you into a space in me that sits well.

JFR - SuperRICH to the tunes of 400 Million USD a YEAR during the Regan and Bush years. When his fell apart - he didn't know how to make a washer and dryer work. had to call a friends named GINA to help from afar.

Matt Rhodes - Wealthier middle class homeboy from Pepper Pike. yup, went oschool and everything together. Major life talks in college as Frat bros. Sucks the tit of the Guerins through Frohlich and then testifies to lies and makes perjury on the witness stand in 2003. Want this guy producing a thing for you? German money, now what Matt. This is outed and so are you. DID you speak with Bloom last that night? likely, yes.

Into the NOW.

Micahel McCullar of Mira Monte 1337 Cruzero Rd. off Tico and the 150.
Who is he? A welfare fraud, a likely distributer or connection to distribution of meth and heroin. Sire of one child conceived in a most nefarious way. Though, at first an interest to daddy may have existed, likely not honey. Same with our possible future President and same with me. my folks battle still to this day about my birth, my conception. "K" you are so much better off and i miss you too.

This happened to us because of me. I couldn't handle daddy threatening me in front of you. Offering to adopt you was and still is the strongest statement of happiness and health i have expressed in so many years honey. No joke. You are so ... i have no words baby. I love you and i am sorry to have to be so bold with this, but daddy is not doing good things as we know and you are getting what you want baby. You are old enough to decide to never go back to that house if you don't want to again. I heard you kiddo. I will always be available to you to listen. No MATTER how busy these people make me. You will always have access to me for what I can support and provide to you. Thank you for saving my life with the hosipital. I wish my parents had as much sense as you.

3) Through Frank Rosenblum of Rosenblum Department Stores in Florida; by way of Gene Roddenberry and the entire "Dr. Who" BBC connections to Keanu Reeves that JFR has/had; to Michael and Julia Phillips "Jaws", "Axi driver", to Guerin "Skirball Cultural Center", then to Shapell, Shapell Industries... By way of DENVER where FROHLICH and Guerin began to live together in life; to last night because ALL of this rolls downhill.

4) i volunteered to represent Barack Obama in this race. I will do what i say to suport him as i am able.

5) Due to many of the connections emerging, there are significant ties to corruption in the Los Angeles Superior Courts and the Public Defenders office throug hthe 2003 trial that led to me meeting the wonderful shadowy types in the Wasco State Prison they wondered out loud to me why this 805 Jew (me), the only one they ever met, led to a likelihood that inside the Ojai Jews Camp was a little problem going back many years. And why did that come out? because that DUDE, McCullar was skimming off the top when a homeboy left the biz and he moved "up"? Politics pal, you just do not get the power of looking accross the "smokey room" and getting a vibe. Ask Barack? isn't it about reading signals and postures, and knowing more than the opponent? That's why i like him,. because accross the room Obamba I would still read the aura and that means something. Ask anyone. That is human nature. Some can do the bigger jobs and make choices about nuclear wars, and some can skim the top and call attention to themselves.

It was just a dumb connection to the daughter that caused me to escalate my own timeline for my new shadow friends. See, i LOVE ACCESS - guess what i have a whole stinking lot of? Oh, VCSD -shhhh! ADA was in the house! My good buddy Ryan had sent them in and that's where the FAX came from too - Atorney General Brown. We are still 5 x 5 withpout the stupid Victims' Board filing. You throw this out on that shit and we go FEDERAL, you don't throw it out and we loose, it goes FEDERAL, you decide in favor and it goes FEDERAL.

WE in this COUNTRY want to not choke out the prisons with possession beefs. That's upped on the agendas. Okay? Good. Here is my ACCESS and that is the point.

Maybe i am inpoverished forever. I am in ZaZen normally and FREE now ALWAYs. Inside or out. I AM FREE!

6) My blood brother, Kirk Jaffe of Academy Mortgage Group in Los Angeles is a plagerist and a liar. My parents are swindelers and liars. I have questionable methods of life actions when claiming responsibility for certain deeds and needs to right past wrongs. Have I hurt you? Have i hurt mySelf intentionally in the process?

No. but the current reality speaks louder than words.

I loved the speech last night. Why? Because it helped me to understand what Obama might have processed when offered the chance to run for DNC nomination taking him from the senators offices he swore to keep until it was over.

Why indeed? lets' analyze as a machiavellian might:

a] He is Hawaiian in birth, wit hheritage of mixed cultural identity. This lloks good to the asian rim.

b] CA and the Nation have been well blocked by way of Middle East fightingto the Inidan Ocean and the Asian markets by way of this "war". Not too safe in that region. Dubai is closed pending the PALM ISLAND fiasco emerging.

c] We need access to larger global markets and so need the pacific rim and China. Obviously.

d] Obama has the HISTORY lessons down it appears. Great civiliations: Rome, Babylon, etc. how many times has the city of Jerusalem been re-built? This indicates that our way of living is threatened in the next 25-50 years as all large emterprises are if they do not adapt and adopt operating policies that will align the populus with the rest of the cultures around it. In the GLOBAL age, wit hlarge CLEAN UPS necessary in the regions blow the surface of the pacific rim, we ar eneeding a man willin gto wake and scream in the night and then get back to the phones for the encouragement necessary to MOVE the SCIENCE and TECHNOLOGY into this massive cleanup effort. NOT JUST FOSSIL FUELS! Though, this is a great platform to stand upon.

e] In the enterprise in this analysis, one must see that Barack Obama is also likely going to have to "weigh in" if president on Jaffe v State of California et. al.

f] He wants to decriminalize - from my understanding- the possession of Medical Marijuana. If that had already been a relity, then this would not involve an election cycle. This would not involve the Frohlichs, Jaffes, Guerins, Shapells, the Golians, the McCullars, the City of Ojai, the Ventura Public Library System, the 8th Amendment of the United States Consititution, the heroin, the meth, the addictions and the many ways to hold a person hostage for over a decade. Go to McCullar for domestic terrorist pointers. That's why his daughter does not wish to be around he and the step mother. they are terrorists. how do i know? because so are my parents.

the unravelling of 'pieces of shit" (oh sure, if that makes y'all think better and get through the day, go ahead, it's your thought and your breathe and your kharma.) maybe that is me. maybe Scott Mitchell Jaffe is unravelling. I think not.

Machiavelli is clear, and to sit ZaZen with that is difficult. So to is sitting as President pof the United States of America in todays Global climate.

I will stand behind my President and I will stand behind that person whom I have a clear conscioussness when i see him live.

I enjoyed your speaking Senator Obamba.

first entry - re-written in a day or so

2008-08-28T12:06:00.001-07:00

be warned, it reads ANGRY.

this is a thread of an email to a lifelong friend. she is concerned about me. i am also concerned about me - though in a different sort of way.

i attempt to be clear and things are spinning very quickly now.

i am beginning to give this blog spot address out and this is the one which is going to generate global critical mass on the issues.

simplesmj.blogpost.com

have a very good day people.

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amy, mental health is a sham and the help i receive is better than most.

as for friendship, family, typos, and my rage at these horrible deeds done to me ... yes, i have much healing to do.

PTSD is not a "bad" or "not bad" type of disorder i am coming to learn. it is "triggered" by both good and bad events/ideas/concepts/people/places/things/etc.. and the things that trigger me in this world are my responsibility to work through in the best ways possible.

when i am not in communication with friends because they are unable to deal with the compelling nature of PTSD to "get off the chest in the moment that which is triggering feelings and relapsing memories"- i work out. when my friends explain that in their minds i need better than what i am getting - this also triggers me - though in a supported way. thank you. i agree. i need better supports than i have and i am seeking these out in the world in the best way possible.

i have to recreate my entire existence from the funds, to the friends, to the family.

try this sometime when you are nearing 37. no, really, don't it sucks and you have three others plus stevie in your immediate to love and support.

amy, i realize that you are so attempting to wrap your mind around this. just try to not overburden yourself. i will be okay in time. i have bounced back in the past - always bounced back from this trauma i seem to have attracted over life.

I/i have creativity, drive, stamina, good genes, and now, good joss? look, two degrees, loads of business and professional experience to draw upon and the ability to create meaning from madness. who else do you know that is able to point to these markers in recovery - and quickly? i want wellness, happiness, love, family, children, and friends. i have the capacity to fogive the tresspasses against me, though the struggle to remain in forgiveness with people like sara, my parents, the State, the Guerins and Frohlichs, the Ruckus Crew schmucks - these are constant struggles and possibly life ones.

lorna would be wisest to stop reading, and to simply see herself as a muse in my world. and guess what - i hope she is as mad as a hatter. because i want her energy to be intertwined with mine for many moons - is thisdangerous writing? no.

either like us amy - as friends - or as like you and brian - mates, parents of your children, lovers, friends for over twenty years. and yes, lorna, brian is older than amy - though not like us, however, they have years of deep friendship as their base.

we, a wackiness that is simple and that is what this new blogspot is about ... simplesmj.

i do not wish to intertwine here the past badness in detail- i wish to move on to a forward focused goalstate of intertwining the best of my past (my friendships with amy and brian) and the best of the present (all of the Ojai and State of CA that is standing behind me - taking a chance to declare - he is not a bad guy - not a criminal - my day is spent pursuing the worst not jaffe, but the ones that really frighten me and my family in the night) thanks, i realize that "they" are endorsing me as not that type of person.

tony is the p.o. and a guy not at all pleased with the way this reflects on his chosen career.

my stamina comes in KNOWING not simply believing, rather SEEING FACTS & KNOWING that i did not stalk, threaten, break anything, harm anyone in any way, and have not chosen to exercise the "new" connectivity to some very real and very dangerous elements in SoCal.

i am getting "used" to where i am and what i am becoming. i am calling the shots in my life and people are responding - finally - because time is showing that PTSD is not ScizoAffective and not made of psychosis leading to psychotic episodes in face of great stress, rather eccentricities in the definition of psychosis. check Black's Law Dictionary. psychosis is eccentricity in the Law. by def then amy, world, you are all crazy - just like me. welcome to reality.

i just shut down instead of going wild because there is nothing to go wild about - except the truth. truth is worthy of history and the pedestal of time.

and that sort of wild is simply finding the most gorgeous flowers to symbolize a gorgeous connection with a woman whom is amazing to look at, to watch her energy interact with others and to dream a little dream about in my heartspace and mind. this is history, a global flirtation of epic proportions.

you see me amy, my spirit and soul and always have been able to do so. i love and love deeply and it tends to be a lifelong love when it is real - like ours has always seemed to be and continues to be.

today is this carbon to the world: this email-thread honey.

thank you amy - my first honey blond friend and my lifefriend- i adore you completely.

From: Rxxxx@aol.com
Date: Mon, 25 Aug 2008 22:04:23 -0400
Subject: Re: FW: update
To: sjaffelive@live.com

In a message dated 8/25/2008 3:53:19 PM Eastern Daylight Time, sjaffelive@live.com writes:

What the hell scott? If your ptsd is as bad as you say it is and I believe you, You need better mental help than you are getting. I say this because I do care. I'am scared for you. You sound so unhappy.

Love,
A

the typos are not withstanding. i am sick and tired and hurting and my child OUR CHILD is dead because of you.

MEYER JAFFE - full RUSSIAN. not Ukrainian - my mistake. not that it would "be bad".

Russian. fully Russian on the side of where the strength in conception comes from. fathers line is all RUSSIAN descent. i am American in the USA, and we all are melted together - that's what gives us the ability as a nation to exude into the global spheres of influence. the TIES to the OLD COUNTRIES. right? search yourself, what are you made of? if not indigent to one place then you are descended of immigrants.

congrats! now you know what you are and now i know what i am.

Date: Mon, 25 Aug 2008 12:49:33 -0700
From: ojaiscott@gmail.com
To: sjaffelive@live.com
Subject: update

LA TIMES contacted. The Attorney General called me on cell phone. we are going to due diligence. we are moving toward settlement over trial. i want trial so i can out all you fuckers.

its over going back to 1971. stay the hell away. you do nothing but fester a type of cancer and bad joss.

you fucked up nathans work and he is spinning. so, eat your shit cause you shit were you eat. rick.

the case is going and on tack.

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check out these BLOGs and sites for relevant information about

JAFFE v California et al

scottmitchelljaffeconsulting.blogspot.com

scottmitchelljaffetwo.blogspot.com

and ... simplesmj.blogspot.com

soon, the LA TIMES?